Saturday, November 29, 2008
Friday, November 28, 2008
Sunday, November 23, 2008
Wednesday, November 19, 2008
Then you have the "little" things...but are they actually little? Not really...actually they are huge, but some people never stop and give thanks for these things...I am thankful for so many things in life…things I never thought to "be thankful for"…such as patience (THANK you God for this!!!), understanding, having faith, high progesterone levels, dr. appts, INSURANCE, My Doctor, my nurse, my whole Dr. office and the sweet ladies who work there, My on-line ttc friends whom I have grown so close to over the years, my boss (she never questions an appt...just supports me and lets me go...you don't find that in most jobs), OUR DOGGIES--OH how I am so thankful for my little 4-legged children…
Zach and I have had a crazy year, but every single thing we have endured has made us even more thankful than the last. God is amazing and everything happens for a reason, and I am THANKFUL that I have accepted things in life and I am THANKFUL that I know to put everything in God’s hands!!! As everyone knows the past couple days weren't the easiest for us, however we are so Thankful that God gave us the patience, understanding, strength to get through it and faith to move forward...God doesn't do things to punish us, and we are thankful we understand that...God does stuff to make us stronger people-->which I am so thankful that I know to trust in him.
Be thankful for everything, I mean EVERYTHING, take this Thanksgiving season as a time to reflect what you are most thankful for but also to acknowledge the "little-big" things that you haven't ever "acknowledged"…and always count your blessings…for without them…life is meaningless!!
Tuesday, November 18, 2008
Yesterday we “thought” all of our dreams had been answered. You see my cycle is late, I figured I would be a “cheap” pregnancy test (keep in mind I was told I wouldn’t ovulate, and if I did the chances were slim). Well, I didn’t want to waste money on an expensive pregnancy test for it to just say negative…so my analogy was take the test yesterday morning, see that it’s negative…call my Dr, go in for a beta and then induce my cycle (you have to have a beta before you induce your cycle, and for those who don’t know beta=blood pregnancy test).
OK, so I pee on the stick yesterday morning…set it down, walk away…do some things and then I am staring…”could that be a line”…”no way”…when I held it far away you could see it, when I held it up close you couldn’t…everyone who saw it said it looked to be positive…well I just let it go, I blew it off as – or an “evap” line…went home that afternoon, looked at the test and it was clear as day positive…I wanted to freak out so bad, but to tell you the truth I just knew something wasn’t right about it, I had this gut feeling…well Zach gets home, and I asked him what he saw…his face lit up and he confirmed I wasn’t seeing things…we both agreed not to tell anyone or not to get excited until we took another one tomorrow and a Dr. confirmed it. Well I took another one and it looked the exact same as the nights before…so it really didn’t help confirm anything, I was hoping for darker…Zach held them up for minutes just comparing them…I could see the excitement in his eyes, but I still felt it wasn’t true…something was wrong…I called my Dr. as soon as they opened and they told me to get in ASAP, they were all so excited there…(this is the close I have ever come to a “real” +…) they greeted me at the door, walked me through the back way, and everyone I passed told me they were praying for me and good luck…it made me feel good to know they all cared so much. Well on my way back to work I decided to go to HEB and pick up a “digital” test…heck with the lines, all I want to see are those “WORDS….PREGNANT OR NOT PREGNANT”…so I sneak in work, run to the restroom, and pee on yet another stick…praying for it to pop up pregnant, but just knowing it’s not. AND just like I thought, it popped up NOT pregnant. OK…bummer…but then again, maybe I am not “far enough along” for the digital to pick upà you have to have 50mIU of HCG for the digital but only 25mIU of HCG for the equate test, so I still had a little hope, but still could have bet money I wasn’t pregnant…
WELL, my Dr. called, and confirmed what I have been feeling…my beta was negative. I had absolutely NO HCG in my system at all. I am surprisingly ok over the whole thing, maybe because I expected it…maybe because I truly believe it will be ok and God is watching over us. I don’t know why certain things happen, but I do know life goes on…you can’t dwell on the past, you just have to move forward and pray that God guides you the right way. I really suspected that I would be in tears, but I am very blessed that God had his arms around me when I got that call…it made the world of a difference.
So you might be asking how the other 2 were positive??? They were false positives…it’s very rare that it happens, however it does…and out of the many accurate test, Tiffany some how stumbled across a faulty box…go figure…there isn’t anything you can do, but move forward…
SO note to self:
1) Never buy Equate again
2) Never trust a faint positive
3) Never keep the test, always throw it away 5 minutes after use!
I do want to say THANKS for all my friends who have been there with me through all of this all morning long, without ya’ll I don’t know what I would do! Thanks :o)
Monday, November 17, 2008
Saturday, November 15, 2008
Thursday, November 13, 2008
So, here are the rules to receiving this award:
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My 5 addictions that keep me going:
1. My husband- YES he is an addictions, and yes he keeps me going...I would be lost without him and there isn't any way I would be able to get through everything I am going through without him, so he is a MUST HAVE ;o)
2. God- AGAIN, YES he is an addictions...he gives me the strength to keep my positive attitude and to keep motivated through all I am dealt! Without him I would also be lost, so he is a MUST HAVE as well!!!
3. The internet- well there are a few "sites" that are must haves, blogspot so I can keep up with all my friends and it's such a wonderful way of keeping a "journal" as well and all my ttc buddies, I don't know what I would do without all of them, I HAVE to be able to check on them and see where they are ;o)
4. Coach- Yes, I am a little obsessed with Coach, I love it!!!! This is my "bad" addiction, haha!!
5. Shoes- OK OK...this is a "bad" addictions too, but I LOVE shoes...I think I could go to Dillards and buy one of everyone, if only my closet was big enough for that...hmmm, something to def. think about when buying a new house, it must have a big enough closet for LOTS of shoes!!!!
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
May/June--we spent a week with them in Williamsburg, VA
Aug--they came here, his mom-sister and neice for 2 weeks, his dad for 1 week
Oct--we went up there for one week
Nov--now his mom is getting to come here for one week
We are so very blessed to have seen them as much as we have this year, we are very thankful for that, although it's still not enough! You never know how much little family moments like this mean to you, until you don't have them anymore. I am very blessed with the inlaws I have, they are all amazing and I love them dearly!!!!
Monday, November 10, 2008
Over the course of 2 1/2 years I have gained a positive attitude, something I am so proud of. Something that I believe is something EVERYONE should have. I know a few people in my situation, and a couple others in different situations but going down a hard "path" in there life...
My advice to you....
It's not always easy to know which path to follow, which decision to make, or what to do. Life is a series of horizons, new hopes, new days and changes that come your way; and we all need some help with these things from time to time.
Remember these things…Have FAITH...DREAM it…DO it!! Be POSITIVE, your attitude will affect the outcome of many things. Ask for help when you need it, seek the wisdom the world holds and hold onto it, PRAY for understanding and patience. You will make progress every single day…just begin, believe and become!!! Give yourself all the credit you're due don't shortchange your qualities, your abilities, or any of the things that are so unique about you. Just b/c something isn't going "right" in your life doesn't make you "different" you are still a child of God, be proud of that...be thankful for the blessings you do have in life...Remember how precious life can be. Imagine and invest the time it takes to reach out for your dreams; it will bring you happiness that no money on earth can buy. Have FAITH that your dreams WILL come true!!! Don't be afraid; I was extremly afraid in the begining....but just remember no mountain is to big to climb if you do it at your own pace and with GOD'S HELP! The BIGGEST piece of advice I can give you, is to find peace in the situation you are in, try to accept it in knowing there isn't anything you can do to change it and set your fears, worries, and sadness in God's hands...let him take control!!!
BE POSITIVE, and everything else will fall into place!!!
Sunday, November 9, 2008
Saturday, November 8, 2008
Wednesday, November 5, 2008
Be thankful that you don't already have everything you desire. If you did, what would there be to look forward to?
Be thankful when you don't know something, for it gives you the opportunity to learn.
Be thankful for the difficult times. During those times you grow.
Be thankful for your limitations, because they give you opportunities for improvement.
Be thankful for each new challenge, because it will build your strength and character.
Be thankful for your mistakes. They will teach you valuable lessons.
Be thankful when you're tired and weary, because it means you've made a difference.
It's easy to be thankful for the good things. A life of rich fulfillment comes to those who are also thankful for the setbacks. Gratitude can turn a negative into a positive. Find a way to be thankful for your troubles, and they can become your blessings.