I received a rather strange (but sweet) email the other day from someone in there younger teens (my very first email from a teenager), although I could have looked at it as a rude comment, I also saw it as someone who wanted to reach out...
One of the statements was 'What does it feel like to be infertile' ... by the rest of the email I do not think this was meant to be taken as a rude comment, I could gather that this person truly cared and was questioning the feelings of an infertile...
There are many emotions that flood together, it's like a the best and worst roller-coaster ride you could ever imagine.
You feel angry that all of your friends are experiencing something that you would love to experience with them...
You feel sad that your body doesn't 'work' properly.
You feel like a failure and like you are letting your family and husband down...
You feel embarrassed that you can't conceive...
However, with all of those negative feelings you also feel blessed that God picked you to go through such a hard time, why feel blessed? Because he saw something special in us--he knew that we could handle it...he has built our strength, or marriage and our relationship with Him.
I've said it many of times, I would not have picked this journey for myself...however I am blessed and thankful that God has chosen it for us...it has molded me into a person I never thought could have existed.
It's impossible for me to explain in words the feelings of an infertile, but the above is just a little of what we feel at times... and I thank you for inquiring and wanting to know...I think your email was brave and it showed alot of character--thank you for being so open and honest. :)
Thursday, September 9, 2010
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I could not have summed it up better! I think I would have put "annoyed" - because people always ask if you have kids and you have to say no.
He really did pick the strongest couple to go through this b/c most wouldn't make it through infertility this long. I'm so glad ya'll have each other & can't wait till the day ya'll have another.
Beautifully put Tiffany! God does not give anyone more than they can handle. Thanks for posting this! I like that the girl asked this...I have never heard anyone ask this or explain it to anyone.
~Jess
http://bringingyoumorethanasong.blogspot.com/
You are SO right. I have always said the same thing about God knowing the people who are strong enough to handle these struggles. I never thought I was strong enough but He know me better than I know myself. I am praying for you!
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