I went to the Dr again today (for "THE" ultrasound) you know the one that would tell me if a) I am going to ovulate and get the IUI or b) not ovulate and rest for 2 months and start back up with Clomid/IUI till December....WELLLL.....my body has chosed option B. UNFORTUANTLY...BUT it's ok because I truely believe God has a plan. I SOO wish I knew what his plan was, but I don't...so I just have to have faith that he knows what he is doing and everything will be ok. I've told a million and one ppl. that I would LOVE to be "one" of those girls who doesn't have to try to get pregnant and who can be like "OMG...I think my period is late I need to take a test" you know the ones who get pregnant on accident...YEA I would SOOO love for that to happen to me, it sure would beat trying for 2 darn years....WELL...maybe thats God's plan for me to "accidently" get pregnant these 2 months I am on this little break...maybe not....maybe it's his plan for me to be on Clomid...maybe not....maybe he is guideing me to the fertility clinic....maybe not. WE don't know God's plan, but he does!!!!
It has taken me a long time to accept everything, and even though I have accepted it...these past couple days I have had to RE-accept everything. I know that God has a plan and knowing that makes me feel better. YES I want to be a mother more than anything in the world, I want to be able to tell my husband he is going to be a father and watch his eyes light up and I truely believe that God wants that as well...unfortuantly our road to a baby is a little longer and has a little more potholes than others. WE WILL GET THERE THOUGH and when we do we will be WAY PAST cloud 9...we will be on "Cloud 99" :o)
"Don't worry about anything: instead, pray for everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done. The you will experience God's peace which exceeds anything we can understand." Philippians 4:6
Everything will be ok in the end....if it's not ok....it's NOT THE END!!!!!!!!! Thanks for all your prayers, and please keep them up.
-LOVE-
3 comments:
u poor thing. im sorry. this sucks. but u are more than right, He's got the master plan :) concentrating on this is i know ur number 1 priority and u cant help but keep it in ur mind, but just relax and have a HAPPY 4th of july holiday with friends and family who love ya!
Girly ill say it til i die you are one of the strongest people that ive ever met. Most women would have given up months and months ago. You and Z keep fighting for that child and that angel baby and it will happen. God has a plan like you said and we will never know his plans until it happens. Yall are always in my prayers for that angel baby to get here. I love yall more than anything in this world. Keep that head up, i admire you in so many ways!! We love you!
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