3 years ago....

Three years ago we had no idea what was in store for us…
Three years ago I was a weak person who cried her self to sleep…
Three years ago I didn’t have a lot of faith…
Three years ago I thought I would “instantly” get pregnant…
Three years ago I never thought I would have had an IUI…
Three years ago I dreaded Dr appts and blood work…
Three years ago we never knew how much money we would spend on pregnancy test, we never knew we would see so many negative ones, we never knew that we would stare at a negative one hoping that a line would magically appear.
Three years ago I never thought I would THANK God for this situation…
Three years ago our lives changed….

In the past 3 years, I have become stronger…
In the past 3 years, my relationship has grown…
In the past 3 years, God has shown me how to depend on HIM and how to set my fears in his hands, and my doing that he has given me strength and patience.
In the past 3 years, I never thought that I would be excited to go to the Doctor and that I would not care about blood work..
In the past 3 years, I have learned how to be open with my situation vs. being scared…
In the past 3 years, I have met numerous wonderful people…
In the past 3 years, my Faith has guided me where I am now…
I have not been pregnant in the past 3 years; however God has blessed me in so many other ways.

Three years ago we started on this journey, not quite sure what was in store for us, not quite sure how to accept it…we cried many nights, we were angry, envious of those who got pregnant with out even trying or right away. We didn’t think this journey would take this long, however we are thankful for this journey. We have learned so much, grown so close and appreciate things in a whole different light, as well as see things in a different perspective. God knew what he was doing when he handed us this journey, however we have had our doubts, he never did…he knew we would handle it fine and he knew it would mold us into stronger and better people.

Although God doesn’t give us the life we envisioned for ourselves, he gives us the life we need…and the life that will help us grow! Zach nor myself know where this next year will take us, we don’t know if we will end up pregnant or not…but we do know that every step we take we grow closer with each other and God!

So Thank you God for the past 3 years, in the beginning I know I questioned you, for that I am sorry. Thank you God for giving us this situation and for helping us learn to lean on you, thank you God for being there for us, guiding us through this journey and showing us patience. Thank you God!!!!