Wednesday, March 18, 2009

Fertility Clinic...EEEKKK

Fertility Clinics…EEKKKK! The thought scares me…it’s about 3 hours away, that scares me…the MONEY…that scares me…oh Lordy, lets just say it… “The WHOLE thing…SCARES ME!”

Needless to say, this has been the LAST thing on our minds…just the distance and the money in itself was enough for us to put this on the backburner! If you know me personally you know I can not stand to drive and ESP. to places I do not know—not to mention a HUGE city with crazy traffic! I have everything so easy right now…ins. covers my fertility meds…my Dr. is right down the road pretty much, I wake up run to the Dr and come to work, all in a matter of an hour’s time…PERFECT!!

Well last night Zach and I went out to dinner and over dinner we talked…this was part of our conversation…

Zach said… “Not to be a downer, but I just want to know why you haven’t been pregnant yet”…

I responded.. “I wish I knew myself”…

Zach said “How can we know for sure…I mean I know you have unexplained infertility and PCOS…but seriously, 3 years, that’s a long time Tiff…”

I said… “I know honey, the only thing that can give us a different answer or better answer is an actual fertility clinic”

Zach said… “Well….LETS GO”

Me…. “WHAT?!!?!?!?!?!.....seriously…the money….the drive???”

Zach said…. “I want answers, I will have someone drive you every time you have an appt, whether it’s your grandparents or if it’s a friend or if I can I will….and the money, we will figure it out!”

Me…((Dumbfounded and almost in tears))…. “wow…ok…when?”

Zach… “Well we have 2 cycles before my surgery…then about a month or 2 off…so if nothing by June-July, then we will go; I just want some answers…I want to know if we will have to have IVF or just regular IUI’s with injectables or what…if it’s something expensive we can rest and just save… they may even tell us you can’t conceive and then we could be saving money for adoption…we need this Tiff, we need answers...”

Me… “OK…wow…ok…wow…were really going to do this…oh my goodness…I don’t know whether to be scared or excited...”

Zach… “don’t be scared…everything will work out!”

SOOO…there you have it…if nothing by June-July we WILL be going to a fertility clinic…(EKKKK I said those words again)…as you can tell, I am a little nervous…but luckily my husband isn’t so that will help me with everything! I PRAY PRAY PRAY PRAY PRAY that something happens from now till June-July and we do NOT have to go down this road, however if we do I know we will not be alone! If you can all PLEASE pray that God guides us through this, that God keeps us strong that would be amazing!!!

I want nothing more than to be able to tell you all that “we are expecting a little baby Pifer” before I tell ya’ll “it’s fertility clinic time”…but that’s solely in God’s hands…so although I want ya’ll to pray that we do get pregnant before than, I think we need prayers for strength, guidance, positivity, patience and that our Faith in the lord continues to grow stronger day by day!

Thank you all for following our journey and for all the prayers! Ya’ll are truly a blessing from above!!!!

19 comments:

The Jarvis Family said...

Awe that man loves you so much!!! Girly as long as you two have each other and stay strong, thats all you need to get through this.

Melody said...

I'm so glad you have someone like Zach. I also pray and believe you won't have to go to the fertility clinic! PCOS is NOT a reason not to be pregnant! I have it and I have a baby! Don't let that get you down! I think you have an amazing doctor and I'm sure they will do whatever they can to help you!

Mimi said...

I will be praying for you honey. I hope you do get pregnant before then but if God has other plans for you. I know you are going to do wonderful. Fertility clinics are OB's on steroids. It really isn't scary at all!!! I promise you! You are a strong woman.

God Bless,
Kami

Megan said...

That's great that he's so on board with everything. It was like pulling teeth to get Kyle to go. I'll be praying for you guys!! xoxo

Ape said...

omg i thought i would never ever hear those words from you. Im excited and scared at the same time. If Zach can't drive you, you let me know and ill take off and well go on a girls day trip! I hope yall dont have to go this far, but i agree with Zachary!! We ♥ ya

twondra said...

What a great husband. :) I really hope that you don't have to go down that road, but at least the option is there. :) (((HUGS)))

Definitely praying for you guys!

Brenton and Jenna Lane said...

We will be praying!!! Stay strong girl!

Emily said...

It's not scary! It is so gratifying when you finally have answers and a plan! Wishing you luck on your journey and wishing it wasn't such a long drive!

Ashley said...

Praying for you honey!!! It's not scary at the clinic:) I have to drive an hour to get to mine so I know how you feel. Wishing you lots of luck!!

David and Emily McKay said...

GOOD LUCK! David and I had to go thru fertility treatments to get Aubrey. I felt this overwhelming sense of urgency and now after loosing David I know why!!! I will be praying for you! I remember all of the blood work, the procedures, the disapointment month after month and all the other lovely parts of fertility treatment, but from someone that has been there IT CAN HAPPEN and God is so good!

Mrz. Hannah Myhre said...

It great that your dh is so supportive:) I hope and pray that you get pregnant before, but if not it will be ok. Your dh is right, it will feel better to get some answers. I was so nervous & excited my first RE visit. To me it was worth it, I got my answers that same day!!!

Keeping you in my thoughts & prayers

Hannah

ashley said...

I know it's all very scary, but you'll get through it. From what I've read, you're a tough cookie. Just take it a step at a time.

Ashley said...

I am totally praying for you guys. I hope you guys don't have to take the next step and that something happens these next 2 months,but it is great to have another option. I am glad that Zach is ready and thinking ahead. Ya'll are great together and as long as you have each other, you have nothing to worry about!! I am ready to take a trip to Austin anytime you need me too :)

Love ya~
Ash

Mrs. Amanda said...

We ARE new RE buddies, but I'm praying that you don't need the appointment! :) It took me a loooong time to decide to go - our nearest RE was 5 hours away (I just found one an hour away, which finally talked me into it). If you do end up going, don't be nervous! It's very exciting! I'm so glad you were able to have such a positive conversation about a tough topic - hooray!!! You are in my prayers tonight - c'mon, BFP!

The Browns said...

Hey! I'm so glad you found my blog :) I am currently taking clomid too & have been diagnosed with PCOS. So has my twin sister "Becky". We chat with a couple of other girls on gmail chat if you are ever bored and wanna chat with us! My e-mail is: bonniembrown@gmail.com
Have a good Friday!

<3 Bonnie

Nicole M Wood said...

I am so glad that you found my blog! I am doing the whole clomid thing, this cycle, but didn't get the hcg shot. I will be praying for you!

That is soo exiting that your hubs is all for it. That is how Jerrame is. I am the one that is scared about money and stuff.

If you ever need anything my email is nicolemwood@gmail.

Hope that you have a great weekend!

b is for brown said...

definitely praying for you as well. so glad you found me. you have a new TTC friend. i added you to my TTC blog. ;)

Guy and Julie said...

Thanks for stopping by and commenting. I skimmed through some of your past posts, and I have to say I can relate to you and your husband in a lot of ways. I'm having knee surgery in May for a torn ACL/MCL/meniscus. We are about to come off a "break." Our insurance situation is VERY similar to yours. We are about to go to a fertility clinic, which is 3 hours away. And I'm scared to death but at the same time very excited to take the next step. Anyway, just know I relate and somewhat understand how you feel. I will add you to my prayers. Stop back by anytime!
JG

Shelly said...

YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! in the end, no amount of money will stop u from being able to hold a precious gift from above!! i hope this works wonders for u guys!!!


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