My Dr. called me yesterday—he knew I wasn’t going to go back to back as it was too much money…however he wanted to discuss the ‘what’s next’ when we are able to come back.
Well back in the very beginning he said that he wanted to do 1 IUI/Injections before going to IVF…however during one of my first follicle scans he mentioned that I was looking good and he felt if this one didn’t work he could do 2 more…so at one point we thought IVF was next and another time we thought IUI was next, however to be completely honest we didn’t think of ‘what’s next’, we only concentrated on the day we were on…
So he called and told me that given the fact he watched me very closely for a cycle, he knows how my body works and how it reacts to injections…he knows how my ovaries look and when I ovulate and so forth---he said I am the perfect candidate for IVF. (heart sinks a little)… “really IVF” I said… he said it’s safer, the success rate is higher, and you can never have ‘too’ many follicles unlike IUI. He explained the in and outs to me and I do admit, he is right. Due to my body producing so many follicles and this past cycle almost being canceled, he thinks we will be ‘border line’ on all my IUI cycles—meaning most might end in cancelation or like this past cycle were they almost get canceled due to too many follicles.
So he said, he wants to do IVF next. So why is my heart sinking?? Because it’s so expensive and my insurance doesn’t cover a dime. I have no idea how we are going to do this. They are sending me a pamphlet with all the cost and information that I will need so we can figure everything out....
Unless a miracle happens, we will not be trying again until next year sometime (...bummer) due to the cost of IVF. We will have to save longer now; I do believe and trust my Dr. when he stated this is the best option for us. I am sad that we won’t be able to try for quite some time now, this whole year has mostly been a break due to the start of a fertility clinic…I feel like we just started with the process—now we have to step back for months...I feel like our future child keeps getting pushed farther and farther away.
I do believe in miracles, I hear of them happening daily…so I do believe that if it’s God’s time something could happen before then, and that is what I am praying for. I am praying for a miracle from God. I say it all the time, but he has a special plan for us. I truly believe that, he will not put us through anything we can’t handle.
So whats next....we will keep on praying and keep on going down this journey knowing that with God we will be ok :) ‘I can do everything through him who gives me strength. Philippians 4:13’
((Thanks for the prayers for Poppee—please continue to say prayers for Poppee and his family, I will keep you updated.))