Tuesday, August 25, 2009

Break till' 2010

My Dr. called me yesterday—he knew I wasn’t going to go back to back as it was too much money…however he wanted to discuss the ‘what’s next’ when we are able to come back.

Well back in the very beginning he said that he wanted to do 1 IUI/Injections before going to IVF…however during one of my first follicle scans he mentioned that I was looking good and he felt if this one didn’t work he could do 2 more…so at one point we thought IVF was next and another time we thought IUI was next, however to be completely honest we didn’t think of ‘what’s next’, we only concentrated on the day we were on…

So he called and told me that given the fact he watched me very closely for a cycle, he knows how my body works and how it reacts to injections…he knows how my ovaries look and when I ovulate and so forth---he said I am the perfect candidate for IVF. (heart sinks a little)… “really IVF” I said… he said it’s safer, the success rate is higher, and you can never have ‘too’ many follicles unlike IUI. He explained the in and outs to me and I do admit, he is right. Due to my body producing so many follicles and this past cycle almost being canceled, he thinks we will be ‘border line’ on all my IUI cycles—meaning most might end in cancelation or like this past cycle were they almost get canceled due to too many follicles.

So he said, he wants to do IVF next. So why is my heart sinking?? Because it’s so expensive and my insurance doesn’t cover a dime. I have no idea how we are going to do this. They are sending me a pamphlet with all the cost and information that I will need so we can figure everything out....

Unless a miracle happens, we will not be trying again until next year sometime (...bummer) due to the cost of IVF. We will have to save longer now; I do believe and trust my Dr. when he stated this is the best option for us. I am sad that we won’t be able to try for quite some time now, this whole year has mostly been a break due to the start of a fertility clinic…I feel like we just started with the process—now we have to step back for months...I feel like our future child keeps getting pushed farther and farther away.

I do believe in miracles, I hear of them happening daily…so I do believe that if it’s God’s time something could happen before then, and that is what I am praying for. I am praying for a miracle from God. I say it all the time, but he has a special plan for us. I truly believe that, he will not put us through anything we can’t handle.

So whats next....we will keep on praying and keep on going down this journey knowing that with God we will be ok :) ‘I can do everything through him who gives me strength. Philippians 4:13’

((Thanks for the prayers for Poppee—please continue to say prayers for Poppee and his family, I will keep you updated.))

22 comments:

Melissa said...

Oh I know how you are feeling today and every day. I just wish the pain and the constant thinking of how and when we will have babies would end for us both that we would have our miracle babies and god would bless us both as we are BOTH deserving of cute little ones. You have been in my thoughts over the past few days and I hope you know that. I wish you and Zach only the best. Have a great day! Keep smiling!

Courtney said...

I'm so sorry. Hold tight to the fact that God does have great plans for you and if it is His plan for you to go through IVF then He will make a way. I'll be praying for you!

Kristin said...

Oh Tiffany, I know that if a miracle is what it will take, then God will give you that miracle. He is listening, He is faithful, He will give you the desires of your heart. I know He will. I know His timing is sometimes not what we plan. I am praying for you to have your miracle. I am praying that God is going to work through every detail until you have your sweet little one. You will be in my thoughts and prayers every step of this journey!

Brit♥Ann said...

Hi there. just wanted to let you know that there is a card you can apply for and some fertility clinics take it. you can get up to $10,000 credit and make monthly payments to the card co. and just swipe it at your drs office like a credit card. its called care credit and you can apply for it online at www.carecredit.com maybe that will help! =]

Mandy Jo said...

:) Keep your head up girl:)

Veronica said...

Tiff,

Thinking about you guys today and praying that you'll continue to feel peace while you wait. I know that God has a plan and I know He wants to grant the desire of your heart. Just continue being faithful to Him and I know your miracle will come!

Love you!

The Kelley Family said...

You are an amazing woman and that along with God will take you through anything that comes your way. I will keep you and Zach and the entire family in my prayers.
Good luck!

jvwaiting said...

I just recently started following your journey - and I have to sad that I am saddened for you, but it is encouraging to know that your Dr. is very positive about IVF for you.

A said...

I will definitely pray that you can discern God's will for your family. It is so tough when you (I) feel like you have to pay for your baby, meanwhile so many others have children so easily (and, cheaply)...

I recommend Dave Ramsey's concepts to help you start saving alot- we have been able to save a HUGE amount this year after beginning to follow his book in January! (We were originally considering adoption but now we are pursuing some other medicines/procedures, so the savings will pay for those things.)

Jodi said...

Thinking of you! I was so sorry to read the first one didn't take. I have no words, just continue to take it one day at a time and enjoy life along the way! And, you're right, miracles like this happen, maybe you won't even have to wait until then, you could be blessed!

Mrz. Hannah Myhre said...

Hi there.. I'm so sorry that you have to wait longer. I don't know how or when BUT I truly do believe that "Everything" will work out in Gods Perfect timing. And that He will help you along the way:) Keep on being Faithful to God sweetie, and I Know that He'll be faithful to you!!!

Keeping you in prayer!!!

Hugs,
Hannah

Lori said...

What a great verse to end with a post like that. That truly says it all.

I am so sorry that you have to put things on hold. I hope and pray that God blesses you and Zach the miracle that you so deserve!!

Hannah said...

I'm so sorry that you have to break right now. Our insurance (like most) don't cover IVF either, but we are fortunate enough to have saved up enough for it and our dr. has a 'Shared Risk' Program that we are doing.

If I ever hit the lottery, I would love to start an organization to help couples with the costs ofIVF. It's such an expensive procedure that so many couples struggle with.

Will keep you guys in my prayers. Know that God knows your desires and does have a plan for you. And that's something that you can't put a price tag on.

twondra said...

Oh, sweetie. I'm sooo sorry. I have to say that I think you're making the right decision, though. If I had to do it over, I would've skipped all our 12 IUIs and went straight to IVF.

God provides sweetie! It sounds like you have a HUGE support system. Maybe having a yard sale like we did? We made much more than what we thought and being we had so much left over, we're still doing sales and making money. You'd be surprised at how much people want to give away their "junk". :)

Love you sweetie! Thinking of you!!

Marla.z said...

When I was last a pt at tfc (4 months ago), they were running a study for first-time IVFers. It would cover up to 50% of treatment. Not sure if they are still running this study or if you'd be a candidate, but it's worth asking about. Any bit of money helps. Also, I see the dr's point in recommending IVF for you. Since you're not up for reduction (I agree), injectibles is very risky. Save up your money for IVF. And one more thing, have you considered acupuncture? Most insurances cover it. Just some helpful suggestions. Good luck!!!! I'm rooting for you!

G & H said...

I know how hard it can be to have to wait wait wait and its not easy and not fun but your right miracles happen every day ( specially in blog world it seems!) and not only that God knows so perfectly HIS plans for you TIff and for me too !

We'll wait together and support each other and pray for one another!!!

Thinknig of you!

Mimi said...

Oh goodness honey. I'm so sorry. I know you can do it. I would do a fundraiser or something if I were you. A garage sale, something. At least you can get started with the money you raise. I know this will happen. I just know it.

Love you,
Kami

Kylee said...

Tiffany,
I am sorry that you have to wait even longer for your baby. Your faith is inspiring, and I just know that it will happen for you. God works in mysterious ways. It's hard to be patient. Keeping you in my prayers every night. Hang in there.

Stephanie said...

I am soo sorry!!!! I am so ready for you to have your time and I know it is coming! :)

I was thinking that might be what it meant when I saw your twitter this morning...know you're in my thoughts!

Kristi said...

I didn't reply to your last post because I was in tears for you. I was there a little over a year ago, and praying for you and hearing your upsetting news made me sad for you and brought back my sad memories. However, I do have twin 15 month old daughters, and they are here from the help of IVF. It is expensive but it is higher chances. Hang in there, if God feels this is your next step, he will help you with the funds just like he did me. Still praying.

Kimberly said...

Praying for a miracle!

*~Valerie~* said...

Tiffany,

I'm so sorry you guys have to wait for IVF, everything will work out in His own time.

Until then hang on dearly to one another..and you'll make it through this. :)

You stopped by my blog a while ago when I'd hit a rough patch.... if there is anything I can ever do please don't hesitate to contact me at all. We've been TTC #1 since January 2004, and have had some pregnancy losses. We're also at a holding point...saving money for more treatments, and the anticoagulation therapy that will be needed once we (hopefully) achieve pregnancy again.

Take care hun.... will be keeping you in my prayers.

Valerie


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