I know it's soon to be scared, and probably silly. But I am!
I've waited for this moment for awhile, I am so ecstatic for this year...so why am I scared?
I don't even know exactly why I'm scared...maybe partially because I fear it won't work, I fear the whole process at times.
But I'm excited....
Can I be both? Scared and excited?
I've talked to the Temple fertility clinic and they do except Cigna; we will have our consultation with them in March, the month that marks 5 years exactly that we have been trying to conceive our blessing, this will be the month that we move forward.
I think I'm scared of reality, I known women who have had to have several IVF's before one worked...I've always know women who only had to have one...so I do know either can happen. I am scared I will get my hopes up. I am scared if it doesn't work insurance won't cover another one due to meeting our limit...but as scared as I am, I'm thrilled that we are finally being able to move forward...
Right now, at this very moment I feel on the verge of tears...happy tears, but a little terrified ones also.
Please tell me I am normal for feeling this way? I feel so blessed to be given this opportunity thanks to my new insurance, I am humbled and so beyond thankful to finally have the chance to move forward! I don't want to be scared!