Wednesday, May 11, 2011

A lil' defeated...

Today we went in for another ultrasound. 

My right ovary is quite the slacker--it's only holding 6 follicles which isn't the greatest--when my Dr. was looking at it I saw concern on his face---that was until he reached my left ovary that's holding a whooping 15 follicles. He seemed quite pleased that I had 21--I just pray they keep growing!!
 
 My lining was a 4.9; he said thats 'good' but not great...my estradial level came back at 81 which they said is fairly lower than expected on day 4. So they are upping my meds. I will continue to take 150iu in the morning but I will take 225iu at night--they are having to call me in MORE meds because due to this up-age (if that's a word) I will be running short...

I go back Friday for another ultrasound and more blood work. 

I asked him if he felt we were still on track for retrieval NEXT week (I can't believe we are so close already!) He said yes--I could go a day earlier, right one track or a day later...but he thinks it will officially be next week--I have an appt Monday and he said we will know more of an 'exact' date then!

OK---not gonna lie---I'M NERVOUS!!! A lot has been going on lately---A LOT!!!!

I found out yesterday that Talbots; where I work; where I am getting this amazing insurance; the place that has brought my dreams to reality and the reason why we have been able to do this IVF is closing there doors July 24th!!!!! I will be without a job---I will 'HOPEFULLY' be pregnant looking for a job--I am trying my best to not stress and worry; Zach told me to phone all my friends and family and we will let them do the job hunting and stressing for us while we focus on this journey right now! But I would be lieing if I said I wasn't scared! We had a 15K allowance on our IVF for a lifetime; after this cycle is over we would have JUST enough for a FET cycle--well if this cycle doesn't work I am not sure if we can squeeze another cycle in before July 24th. 

I'm a little freaked out...I don't even want to imagine that this cycle doesn't work! I can't even bare that thought--I talked to my Dr. today and told him our situation and he said 'well do everything we can'. He is an amazing Dr. who I know will bend through hurdles for us...I am just on edge right now...

I'm emotional from the shots; I'm a little nervous that our cycle isn't where it needs to be although my Dr. seemed so happy with it...and I'm so scared about whats next for me as for a job!??? 

So much going on and yet I am trying to remain positive--please say a special prayer for us right now--please pray my ovaries corporate as well as my lining...please pray that this cycle works and please pray that God guides me in the right direction as far as a job---and please pray for strength!!!


God doesn't put you through more than you can handle....God doesn't put you through more than you can handle.... repeat....repeat...repeat!!

18 comments:

~Shelly~ said...

Oh NO!! I will be on the look out here at Baylor for you. Its really a great place to work and I love my benefits although I have no idea about the infertility aspect of it. I hope next week is it!!!!!!!!!!!

Christi said...

Oh no. Is it all Talbots or yours? Hopefully you won't need more than this cycle. However if you do, wouldn't your insurance expire at the end of July...maybe some severeance in there too? Wishfully thinking for you.

Christi

The Simmons Family said...

You have so much on your plate right now. Focus on staying healthy, rested and on baby making. The job will fall into place.. they always do. You are in our prayers and there is a big plan for your little family!

waiting and wishing said...

Thinking of you and praying that this is it for you :)

waiting said...

Sounds like Satan is doing what he does best....attacking you! Do NOT let him have your faith and hope. Don't get stressed! You must just relax in the arms of Jesus. Let Him bear your burdens! It's all in God's hands! I know that is easier said than done, but rebuke Satan by trusting in God and God alone! Praying for you during this time:)

Becky said...

I am praying for you Tiffany, asking for this cycle to work to bring you your little one. Be kind to yourself right now, IVF is very stressful so don't put any additional pressures on yourself. Allow yourself to just take it easy and maybe treat yourself to a pedicure or whatever else you enjoy. Don't stress about the estrogen, it is not uncommon for it to be low at first and then shoot up pretty quickly. And 21 follicles is fabulous!!! Grow, grow , grow......

Sumer said...

I too had one ovary that was a slacker (I believe mine was my left). You have WAY more then I had though. I had 14 total. What is important is that they are mature eggs when they retrieve them. Quality not quantity. We had 11 mature when they retrieved them. If you want any stats from My IVF or FET cycle just let me know. My clinic stores our info online (so people like me could stalk/obcess over it) so it is all available to me. Try not to stress over if it doesn't work etc etc (oh and FYI - You totally could fit in a FET by July 24. You can do that your very next cycle and it is super short....BUT your totally not going to need it).

Kristin said...

As I read this, all I can think is what if God placed you at Talbots, knowing that it would go out of business, just long enough for you to get this procedure done, and to become pregnant......now that would bring Him glory and He loves to show off in that way! Keep having faith and believe that He placed you here exactly for this time in history, exactly for this reason!

Whatever happens, I know that He will be right there with you, to bring you through and I am praying, praying!!!

melissa said...

I'm praying this cycle works! No need to worry about the future, just think about today. It will all work out! Tick Tock! It's getting close!

Resplendentquetzal said...

I just wanted to add a little encouragement... IVF was our last hope, and we only had money for one cycle. Due to a huge cyst which damaged my fallopian tube at age 19 I have a right ovary but it is not connected. During our cycle, I produced only 11 eggs, and at retrieval the dr. couldn't access my right ovary at all as it went traveling too high for them to get through. We ended up only retrieving 7 eggs, and through a last minute decision did ICSI on 2. Only 2 progressed and divided properly, and I went home the day of transfer convinced it didn't work. To make a very long comment short... my twin girls were born healthy at 34 weeks 5 days and are now rambunctious 17 month old little girls. Shout out if you ever want the long version!

Jamie said...

Hi Tiffany I Jamie from IAm pregnant website...i wanted you to know i have been silently watching since i concieved my little one way back in Sept 07, I cant believe your strength and faith through all of this. I just wanted to write and let you know I will be praying for you hun.!!!!! Cant wait for your day you finally deserve.

Teresa @ Grammy Girlfriend said...

Saying a prayer....and then another and wait to hear good news...

Kelly said...

Just stopping by to say we will continue to pray for you and your hubby! You guys are going to make AWESOME parents! Keep us all updated..I think everyone on here would admit to being on the 'edge of our seats', waiting to hear the big news!!

**PS ~ I mentioned this a long time ago..but I think "Journey" would be a great name (or middle name) considering all you have gone through!! In fact, we wanted to use that as a name, because of the 'journey' we have taken after losing one of our daughters, but Journey kinda sorta doesn't fit (at all) with our last name :0( so..it was a no go! But I still think its so unique and pretty!

Anyway - enough blabbing from me! We will be praying - lots of hugs!

Peppermint Patty said...

Try Linkedin.com to just put your employment info out there.

Come back and visit. I just put up a new post. :)

Excited for you!

Lauren Bice said...

Saying prayers for you and this upcoming cycle! IVF ICSI was our only shot at getting pregnant and I had the opposite problem, huge ovaries that produced a large quantity of eggs, but not of the best quality. God truly does not give you more than you can handle and He is certainly right by your side through all of this!
I know I don't know you personally, but I am sending as many happy thought and vibes and prayers as I can your way!

onemorebaby said...

Keep the faith that it will all work out the way it is supposed to. Hard to do when you are already emotional from meds, though, huh?! I can't believe your retrieval is next week!!! I will keep following and praying!

Machelle said...

I lost my insurance during my IVF cycle...I got COBRA to stay on that insurance till I was done with it. I had to pay $300 a month I think (this was back in 2008) but that was WAY cheaper than an IVF cycle...so you can always keep COBRA for a bit.

Tiffany said...

Oh no about your job, but hopefully you will no longer need IVF, you are doing the right thing. Just stay calm and positive love. Thinking of you lots. I cannot believe your ER will be next week. So exciting! Load up on whey protein now while those eggies are growing and be sure to eat your pineapple and egg McMuffin. hehee.


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