Letting Go...

I've always been one to live by the saying 'Let Go and Let God'! Throughout this 5+ years I've done amazingly well with having patience with God's plan for us, I've had Faith and have done very well with Letting Go and Letting God...however since our failed IVF, I haven't Let God do much of anything due to the fact I haven't been able to Let Go!!

I think it's safe to say after 4 months I am ready to LET GO-- there is an important difference between letting go and giving up--letting go doesn't mean giving up--it just means I am ready to move on!

We must be willing to let go of the life we planned in order to accept the life that is waiting for us. Will I still think about things-YES...will I still shed tears every now and then-SURE...will the thought that I was 'a little' pregnant for a short period of time ever leave my heart-NO....but  I will be ok, hurdles in life only make you stronger and I have to admit this was one of the biggest hurdles we've been through.

When one door closes another opens, but we so often look so long and so regretfully upon the closed door that we do not see the ones which are now open for us.We will eventually have another door open; I don't want to miss it due to the fact that I can't let go of the door that just closed.

God has slowly provided me strength to move forward and to let go...and that's just what we are doing!

To me...From me

Dear Tiffany,

I know your pain, I know how bad your heart aches, I know more than anything you want to tell your husband that he is going to be a daddy. I know you want to be the best friend, daughter, sister, grand daughter and wife you can possibly be...but it's hard to feel your best when you feel like a failure. I understand that emptiness you have in your heart and although you live a happy life with your sweet husband you still have that hole in your heart that awaits the day it's filled with a blessing from God. 

At times you forget that big picture, you forget that God trusted you with this journey...at times you feel like your being punished--but I can assure you that this will only make you and Zach stronger. It's ok to be weak at times--being weak does not make you a bad person, nor a bad wife (friend-daughter-sibling). Your dream will always defeat your reality if YOU give it a chance. Hang in there-DON'T ever give up. Cling to God, your husband and your closest support system...

Stars can't shine without darkness Tiffany! You will get through this!!

Love-Tiffany