I know your pain, I know how bad your heart aches, I know more than anything you want to tell your husband that he is going to be a daddy. I know you want to be the best friend, daughter, sister, grand daughter and wife you can possibly be...but it's hard to feel your best when you feel like a failure. I understand that emptiness you have in your heart and although you live a happy life with your sweet husband you still have that hole in your heart that awaits the day it's filled with a blessing from God.
At times you forget that big picture, you forget that God trusted you with this journey...at times you feel like your being punished--but I can assure you that this will only make you and Zach stronger. It's ok to be weak at times--being weak does not make you a bad person, nor a bad wife (friend-daughter-sibling). Your dream will always defeat your reality if YOU give it a chance. Hang in there-DON'T ever give up. Cling to God, your husband and your closest support system...
Stars can't shine without darkness Tiffany! You will get through this!!