The past few weeks have been rough. I feel as though I'm on verge of a breaking point. Alots going on in life, I'm working 6-7 days a week through the holidays...my moms having some rough moments with her health and I feel as though the weight of the world is on my shoulders...
It doesn't help that this week will mark the 6th year since my Pepa passed away, and I can't help but think about my little beans we lost this year. This has been a rough year all around, one that at times I wish I could just forget but at times I want to always remember...a year that will be imbedded in my heart forever.
I know that God places us in 'storms' for a reason, I know that 'storms' pass within time, and I do know and believe that after every storm there is a rainbow...
As I was crying and praying the other night, Zach interrupted me and said 'don't pray for an easy life Tiffany, Pray to be a stronger women' He is so right! At times I catch myself praying for things to be 'fair' or for things to get 'easier' when I should really be praying for strength to go through these storms. After all I was placed in these storms for a reason.
God knows my limits, and I must not act like he is pushing me to break...I should just trust that he will catch me if I fall.
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Your hubs is so true about praying to stay stronger! I catch myself praying and wishing things would be a little easier/normal. BUT that strength will help us overcome and do so much more than we could imagine!!! I know I look back at the past and see everything I have been through and how much more of a person it has made me. And I know it has done the same for you.
During my sermon today I referenced the quote from Nelson Mandela, “I learned that courage was not the absence of fear, but the triumph over it. The brave man is not he who does not feel afraid, but he who conquers that fear.” What Zach told you to pray for reminded me of that so I thought I'd share! xo
Wow! I loved what Zach said. How powerful!
Just found your blog and am wishing many blessings for you both on our journey to a family. I've been there myself. It took 6 years to finally hold our baby.
If I could leave one small word.
Please see a fertility specialist. I wasted so much time, money and emotion trying with obgyns that said they could help me get pregnant. They just don't have the experience or training. Unfortunately there is not a board certified fertility specialist here in Waco so we had to drive to Austin. Within 6 months of finding Dr Silverberg we were pregnant. So wish I hadn't wasted all the time. I really regret this now at 40 when I am starting to think about brother or a sister. Because I am so much older now this time it's going to be much harder. Today I am really wishing that I had those 6 years back
It sounds like you have the best husband! You are such a beautiful woman, inside and out! Praying that things get a little easier for you though :)
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