WELL, here we go again! Side Effects...fun fun (NOT REALLY!!). I ended my Clomid today for this cycle, and I start my estrogen tomorrow and the side effects have already started. I am having major hot flashes, bad dizzy spells, moodiness and emotional (bad...poor Zach haha) and I feel nauseous. I am sure this is just the begining of this crazy journey since I have been down the "Clomid Road" before, I know there is more to come :o( I still have 2 other pills I have to take throughout this, u/s and the IUI procedure.
It will all be worth it in the end though, I look into my husbands eyes and know I can't give up. He keeps me strong through all this, and he is so good to me. God, I don't know what I did to deserve him, but I am so thankful he is mine!! He gets me a blanket when I am freezing, tries to calm me when I am emotional, holds me when I am moody (he is brave haha!!)...he wakes up in the middle of the night to give me icepacks when I am hot then quickly covers me back up again when I am cold. I don't know how I would get through this without him. He is so supportive. He is my ROCK! He makes everything seem so much better, even with all my side effects! Baby or no baby...I am one TRULY BLESSED GIRL, which I am so very grateful for.
As far as the IUI approaching; my appt is getting closer...I recieved a question from alot of ppl..."are you nervous"? YES and NO...Yes, b/c it's something new...it's a procedure...sometimes there uncomfortable...will I be emotional?...will it work?...I don't want to get my hopes up...so yes, it's a nerve racking experience...however no I am not nervous in a way b/c it's in God's hands...no matter how scared or how frightened I am, I know God won't put me through more than I can handle. I know that if it doesn't work 1st try, it wasn't meant to be...I know with the help of God and leaning on him to get me through this (As well as my husband!!!) I WILL be able to get through this adventure, NO MATTER the outcome!!! God is great...my husband can't be with me for the actual procedure, so it looks like it will only be me and GOD this time...but with him there beside me (not just now...but ALWAYS), I know I will be ok!!!! :o)