Well I went in this morning (for the 4th day in a row--the lady up front told me I should just move in there, haha!) Well we will not be getting the IUI this cycle, as my follicle is shrinking. My lining on the other hand is doing great, it's measuring .94 (which is awesome considering good is .8) BUT without a mature follicle you can't have the IUI. My follicle was a 16.94 today, they still considered it a 17, but it did shrink some. It is still "somewhat" mature, it is over 12, and anything over 12 CAN release; it's just very unlikely. Since it is shrinking, they don't think it will turn around and grow although anything can happen. SO now we just sit back and wait for my cycle to start so we can start over AGAIN.
I am perfectly ok with everything suprisingly, I kinda set myself up for this in a way knowing that my egg not growing the other day wasn't very good. I refuse to dwell on the things that are not in my control, yes I wanted this so very bad, but I take it as a sign that it wasn't meant to be. When God is ready everything will fall into place exactly the way it should. Until then we can only continue to pray for strength, understanding and patience.