It's A New Day

Well, it’s a NEW day! I would LOVE to tell you I feel better…but I can’t right now. I am done crying; at least right now I am done; I can’t really cry anymore…I’m out of tears {did ya’ll know you could run out of tears???? Well you can!!}. My head is pounding from the crying and stress…BUT I keep telling myself… “Tiffany this is a NEW day!”.

If your new, you can click here to read about what we found out yesterday, reagarding my mom.

I didn’t sleep much last night, from constantly thinking about the risk and everything, to praying, to tossing and turning, soaking in the tub hoping it would relax me…I maybe ended up with 2 hours of sleep. So needless to say I was up this morning at 5am when Zach woke up to get ready for work, he said “Get ready…I’m taking you somewhere”… “WHAT?? It’s 5AM…” he said “your not sleeping, get up…get ready!”. SO I did. My sweet husband took me to eat breakfast this morning, mmmm pancakes seem to always put a smile on my face, even if it is only a temporary smile :). After a much needed sugar intake I headed to work…talking to God the whole way.

“Please God keep me strong…please God watch my mom…please God don’t let me fall asleep at my desk…Please God let this wake up and be a dream…God I promise I won’t bug you anymore about a baby, just please heal my mom…God thank you for my husband who bought me much needed pancakes…Please God carry me through this…Please God don’t let my mother stress….”

I think I pretty much talked to God about anything and everything you can talk to him about. I closed my eyes when I pulled into work, asked God to wrap his arms around me. Right now I feel as though I am in a complete daze, I did however find that when someone hugs me the tears somehow have found there way back…strange thing indeed! I want to thank you all for the comments, emails, calls, re-posting for prayers…everything! Your prayers and your kind words mean so much to me. I am sorry if I haven’t wrote you all back to thank you individually. Just know I appreciate it more than you know! My followers have grown overnight, I am amazed and so very thankful to have each one of ya'll praying for my family. THANK YA'LL!

God is amazing indeed and he WILL carry us through this.

I also promise to be back to my happy-go-lucky self soon :) I am by far a sad person, but this has brought me down a bit…I am on my way back up…slowly but surely with prayer and God’s guidance my mother, myself and our family will make it through this journey!