Wednesday, May 6, 2009

The dreaded "F" word....

NO silly...not THAT word....Ffff-Fffff-Fffff Fertility Clinic....(that’s so hard to muffle out)

Well, it’s official. Zach and I have an appt for a fertility clinic in Austin on 7-7-09 at 9:15am with Dr. “S”.

I am trying extremely hard to “not” think about it. I have promised my husband and a couple friends that I will not stress, so I am doing everything I can to not think about this. We have dreaded this for a while. I'm secretly wishing that some how, some way we can magically get pregnant like so many and “ta-da” don’t have to go to the fertility clinic. I know in my heart that this is something that we need to do, I have Faith that this is where God is leading us to…however my mind right now is stuck on the money; they went over a little bit of the finances with me (I’m sure those of you who are going to a fertility clinic right now know exactly what I am talking about)…I am scared to death about the cost of everything and I know that this will be my biggest stress of all.

As most know, Zach will not be able to go with me to every appt, only the ones that he is “needed” at he will be there. If you know me, you know I am also terrified of driving long distances…thankfully I have had several friends and family offer to drive me and go with me, so I am not near as stressed about this anymore.

I know that everything will fall into place! I am just scared…this is a HUGE leap for us, it’s overwhelming and I kinda wish I could have a personal sectary who would do all this and just tell me when and where to be—(keep dreaming, right?!)

I know that if God leads you to it he will get you through it, I have Faith! I do not know if we will come out of this pregnant, I really wish I knew that because that would make this all a lot easier, however I know that we will come out of this stronger than we are now, we will have more faith than we do now and we will lean on God more than we do already…

Remember… “Without Faith nothing is possible, with it nothing is impossible” I keep telling myself this over and over!!! SO when 7-7 rolls around and I start freaking out, can you all please remind me of this?!?

Please keep us in your prayers, this is a HUGE step that we have dreaded for a while and wish we didn’t have to take, however if this is what it takes for us to be parents we will happily do so!!!!


P.S….7-7 is on a full moon---is that good luck or bad luck?? I don’t want any bad luck or vibes through this time. :)

32 comments:

Stafford Moments said...

So is it 7/7/2009 or 7/7/2010? I hope your appointment goes well. Let me tell you the first appointment was overwhelming for me, but at the same time I was renewed with the idea that I can get pregnant with the help of these doctor's. Just remember that it is now in the hands of the doctor's there is nothing more you can do to get pregnant, but have faith and hope! All the best!

Miranda said...

Well think about it like this.... A full moon is when babies are born. :) I know the anxiety and stress you are talking about right now. It is all too real for me at this point. I have been through 3 IUI's and I still get freaked out when I go to the RE. It will all be ok. Like i said before, everything is going to work out just the way it is supposed to. Keep your chin up.

Ape said...

I know this is something that yall have been dreading but maybe we can now make it something you look forward to!! JUST THINK YOU WILL HAVE ANSWERS to things you want to know. You know Ill always GO WITH YOU if you need it. I Love ya chick and we can get through this!!

Jodi said...

Good for you. It's a bit step and I'm sure scary and overwhelming! Try to take it day by day, I know, easier said than done!

Penny1215 said...

Well I don't know about the moon, but I would think that 07/07 would be a very lucky day!! Hope you get your dream before you ever have to get that far though!!

twondra said...

Definitely praying for you. It is a hard step to take, but it WILL be worth it sweetie! (((HUGS)))

Nichole said...

I agree with PP's - the only time I have EVER had high blood pressure was my first appt. with the RE. Even during our 3 IUI's I had so much anxiety every time I drove to that clinic. It just felt so surreal and odd.

Good Luck! This is a big step in the right direction!

dylonhoustonlaetonreid said...

Thanks for coming by my page...I will follow ya'll as well. You guys are such a beautiful couple and I will be praying for the "F" word appnt's you will be having!

Shelly said...

God lead u to this clinic so SURELY a little miracle will come of it! i will keep my fingers crossed and prayers coming! good luck girl

Kristi said...

Take a deep breath. You can't go into this already stressed. Stress plays a HUGE roll in this step. I am speaking from experience, of course my fertility clinic was in Little Rock, but it was a great experience. It had it's up and downs. In fact 11 months of trying different things and getting 11 negative pregnancy tests. But then there was that awesome day. We did do IVF, and it was expensive but my insurance paid some so check into that with yours. But our thoughts didn't pay attention to the cost we wanted to be parents. I am sure you will get to that point eventually but hang in there. Your day will come whether you carry your child or you adopt YOUR child. It will be your loved angel no matter what. Feel free to e-mail me brown020704@yahoo.com if you need to vent or ask questions. I have been there just a year ago and we went through it without anyone experienced to answer questions. I don't mind.

Silvina said...

I'll be praying for you!!! Faith is so strong and when you have it, nothing is impossible. I wish you all the best. I'll be following your blog to see how your doing. GL!

Brittany and Charlie said...

It will all work out. You will see!!! I will pray for you:)

~Jo*Jo~ said...

Hey, one of my good friends just went through major fertility treatments after years of having issues. She is due October 19 with their little miracle. She went to Austin for treatments - which clinic are you going to? She went to Dr. Lisa Hasard at The Texas Fertility Center. She said they are either the best or one of the best in the state and she highly recommends them and her. If you friend want someone to talk to, she said she would be more than happy to. She found that the women who had just been through it were the most helpful to her. She is on my Facebook friends - Kimberly Schlesinger.

Angie said...

I will be praying for your strength and peace of mind as you take this HUGE step. God is holding your hand the whole way!

Cary Hairbows said...

You will do great, Tiffany! Bring a notebook with questions. You have such a short time to bat all those questions out, but also listen. It is a whirlwind appointment for the first time, but so worth it. I remember scheduling our first appointment, and I made it for 3 months in advance. The receptionist said, "We can get you in next month, if you prefer." I was like, "I would rather keep the 3 months...maybe it will give me enough time to be pregnant and not need the slot." Well, I needed the slot (of course!), but through the stormy bumps of countless procedures, I eventually had a daughter. The journey was worth the stress. I will keep you in my prayers. :o)

Jenna said...

I remember our first RE visit...it was a 2.5 hour drive and I was very nervous too! It actually turned out to be great. Everyone who's there obviously knows why you are there and they did their best to make us feel comfortable. I hope your RE office is the same way! I'm sure they will be! Oh, I've got something for you over at my blog.

Ashley said...

I was nervous about going too...10 months later I feel so comfortable there. It will be fine. I'm praying for you honey!!

b is for brown said...

our appt is this friday. but i am optimistic and excited! i will let you know how our goes. xo

Megan said...

I'll be praying lots for you!! The money was (is) a HUGE thing for me too!

G & H said...

"I know that if God leads you to it he will get you through it, I have Faith"

Tiffany! You are so right! I will be praying for you guys so much for patience and peace and every other thing you need!

I totally know the cost of fertility stuff and now am learning the costs of adoption as well but your right God will be gracious and take care of all the details!

Kelsey said...

Praying for you as you prepare to take this next step!

Meredith said...

I found you through a link of a link of a link (you get the picture) and was immediately drawn to you because our stories are so similar. My husband and I were married a week before you and because of medical diagnosis have unexplained infertility as well. I'll be keeping you in my prayers; that you're appointment goes well and God blesses you with the family of your dreams. God Bless

Crystal said...

Keeping you and your family in our prayers. Who knows... you might become pregnant before you go to the clinic...LOL Just praying that would happen. Take care

Mandi said...

The best I can say is take a deep breath, then remember that God is in control and driving, not us. Good luck sweetie! I am praying for you both!!!

Stephanie said...

I agree with another commenter....babies are born on a full moon so that's gotta be good luck!!! I'll be praying for you!

Ashley said...

Hey, sweet girl!! You will get thru this!! I know that you are overwhelmed with everything, but just take a deep breath and know that you are a step closer to your dreams coming true!! You will be able find the answers that you have been wanting for so long. You know I am available to take a roadtrip with you when Z can't go! I love you and everything will work out =)

Love ya,
Ash

Becca~TimeWellSpent said...

Praying for you!

Lianna Knight said...

Found your blog through April Rose...and wanted you to know that I am praying for you. I too am going down that path of infertility and wanted you to know that you are NOT alone.

Many blessings for the Pifer Bean :)

Kathy said...

YEP, lots of babies are born on nights with full moons....and 7 is a lucky number....it all sounds good!

I know you are scared, but think of it as exciting! I will be checking back to see how things are going!! Big prayers for you guys!!

Amber said...

I know first hand how scary it is to go to the RE but hopefully they will get things going.

Mommy-To-A-Miracle said...

Going to an RE is a huge step.
I wish you nothing but the best on your journey to motherhood.
I hope we hear some wonderful updates from you in the very near future.

As far as the money goes, it does get quite expensive. I had zero IF coverage for the first 2 years. Then we had insurance that covered meds only for 2 years. Now we are back to 100% out of pocket. Luckily, I have 6 frosties and wont be needing all the meds that I needed with my previous cycles.

It will all work out.....
As a PP mentioned, check with your insurace to see what they cover. You might be surprised. Even a little coverage is better than none!

The Freas' said...

I am sooooo excited for you guys! I know you are scared right now but it will be so worth it in the long run! This is what you guys need to get some answers. I know the fear about the money we freaked out about it too! Trust me it is never easy especially when there is no garantee but you have to try! You are always in my prayers.
Nicole


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