This post is not for the squeamish. I normally try to “avoid” details of certain things, however there is no way around this one…so skip forward if you want to “avoid” details (although I will do my best to do so…)
Every since I’ve been on Clomid I tend to have very short cycles…a “normal” (and I use that word lightly)…cycle is every 19-24 days for me. Most women on Clomid have longer cycles; I on the other hand fall in the small group of women who have very short cycles.
Well on the 14th of June I started my cycle—it was like a normal (again I use that word lightly) cycle…however it never stopped… today is day 15 and I am still bleeding. Last night I passed several large (huge is more like it) clots and after 15 days my bleeding was getting worse. ((keep in mind I called my regular OBGYN last week and due to the fact my bleeding was light they were not concerned))….well now the bleeding was picking up, I was feeling sick, and my cramps were horrible.
Of course miscarriage was the first thing I could think of, however being someone who takes pregnancy test “a lot” I knew I wasn’t pregnant…but there was that thought in the back of my head “just maybe…maybe somehow I was”…
So first thing this morning I called my Dr. and of course they said it was urgent that I come in, they worked me right in-and as soon as I got to work I was leaving work to go to see them. I had an ultrasound (which seemed like eternity) then some blood work to re-check several of my levels…and then in to talk to my Dr.
Good news, my uterus seemed fine, my lining was extremely thin (0.12- which they said they think my bleeding will stop soon). However due to my PCOS my ovaries were extremely inflamed with cyst; which in return was/is causing my abnormal bleeding. Which they were very concerned about.
My Dr. said we needed to get this taken care of as soon as possible, they said we need to “stop all activity” of my ovaries for at least a month. Yes you guessed it… “birth control” ~> as most know, I am anti’ birth control. I was told this is what caused me to have severe border line cancer with my dysplasia due to being on birth control for so long, so in result of being told that I am severely scared of being on it again. Yes-this is a different brand (Yaz for those who are wondering) and yes I will only be on for a couple months at the max…but still a very scary-emotional thing for myself and my husband. But we know this is what needs to happen…
Well my first response was “is this going to interfere with any of my fertility clinic test on the 10th?”…they told me no, but I was very skeptical; so to insure me they called my RE while I sat there, they told my RE everything that happened…and my RE agreed to put me on there and he will determine when he sees me on the 10th if we will continue it for one more month or stop after one session of birth control.
It’s been a very emotional and stressful few days for Zach and me…if you can all just keep us in your prayers, pray that this birth control does its duty, pray that my levels that there rechecking today be the same or even better…and please pray for strength to get us through these next couple weeks.
God doesn’t give you more than you can handle…at times I wish he didn’t trust me so much. I do trust him and I am trying my very hardest to lean on him throughout all of this. God has a plan; a special plan—a plan that only he knows…I have Faith; that’s all I can have…he is in charge of the rest.
(Pifer Life, might be up later today…or later this week, as well as some changes that are taking place and weekend pictures…I apologize for the lack of updates but things have been pretty crazy the past few days.)