Everyone keeps asking how I feel…to be honest I don’t feel a certain way. I want this more than words can express. I want to be able to tell my husband he is going to be a daddy; however is this the time? Only God knows! I do realize that my other 2 IUI cycles were with Clomid, they were completely different, however I can’t tell you how much hope I had with those. I just ‘knew’ that was going to be it. But it wasn’t! So to be candid I am just taking one day at a time and I am not thinking about the outcome that may come, I do not want to think about it. Yes, partly because I fear I will again get my hopes up, but mostly because I am trying my hardest to let God guide me through this. He is the one in control, not I. So no matter how bad I want this, it won’t happen unless this is his timing. Will it hurt if it’s not his timing, yes. Will I be ok…most defiantly!! God has blessed me with a great life, my good friend Melissa wrote a blog yesterday about stepping back and enjoying your life. You see I’ve never been one to let trying to conceive consume my life, never been one to let it define my husband or I…it’s something very important to me, and I pray for it everyday—but it’s hard not to get wrapped up in it at times. Like Melissa said…You never know what tomorrow holds, we could be gone one day and worrying day in and day out about getting pregnant is not the way we should live our life. We need to step back and enjoy each and every day and praise God for the life he has given us and the blessings we do have in our life.
Do you know that song by Bob Marley, “Don’t worry about a thing…every little thing is going to be alright…” ?? Well Zach loves that song and has been singing it to me everyday (with his lovely non’ singing voice! Ha!!) But the point is, the message is amazing, no amount of worrying or stressing will change the plans he has in store for us. So for the next two weeks, I am going to enjoy every bit of ‘life’ with my husband, family and friends and do my best not to think about what comes after these two weeks…God will guide us where we need to be! He is in Control—and ‘every little thing is going to be alright!!!’
Philippians 4:6 Don’t worry about anything: instead, pray for everything. Tell God what you need and thank him for all he has done. Then you will experience God’s peace which exceeds anything we can understand.
Thursday, August 13, 2009
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I admire your faith Tiffany and know that God has great plans for your family, not matter what the outcome is :)
We went to Jamaica in March and that Bob Marley song got me from March to our IVF in June/July... and through the IVF process. I play it over and over in my car and on my Ipod whenever I need it. I hope it helps you too!
You amaze me!
You're in my thoughts!
Love it sweetie. Advice we can all use. Thanks!!
Keep that positive outlook, girl!
My friend, Julia, from Twice the Fun, sent me over to check out your blog because she thought we might have something in common...boy do we...
My husband and I married in October of 2002. We waited three years to start trying to have a family and tried for a year before we started getting worried and sought out a fertility expert.
Our stories are SO similar, it is eerie. I have had all the tests you have, have had similar diagnoses, my DH has had an SA done and he has low percentage of motility/mobility. We have had two miscarriages and unexplained infertility.
We started a cycle of Bravelle a couple of weeks ago with the goal of a third attempt at IUI (the first two were with Clomid). I went into the doctor for yet another ultrasound only to find that I had too many follicles to continue with IUI.
We decided we would go ahead with IVF, only during retrieval something wasn't right, and Dr. D wasn't able to retrieve any of the follicles from my right ovary, which had about 10 on it. So, she left the left ovary alone and we went back yesterday morning and had the IUI done we had originally planned on.
It has been such a rollercoaster, and I can't tell you how amazed I am at how similar our stories are.
I too, am taking one day at a time, because the disappointment of two failed IUI's is all-to-real for us.
We want nothing more than God to be glorified and His timing to prevail, and yet in the back of my mind I also have to admit I really want a baby, and SOON! lol
Anyway, I had to comment and reach out to a sister of infertility. It is often the only way I get through some of these times. So, we are waiting for August 26th to arrive and hoping and praying for a miracle!
i listen to that song ALL the time, its one of my all time faves. i really hope this is it for you guys. come on pifer bean!
Beautifully written...and so true!
ps I love bob marly "dont worry be happy"
Hey Tiffany! I've been keeping you and Zach in my thoughts and prayers! I hope you are having a great day!
everything will happen in due time. We are praying its sooner than later but like you said God will do it in his own time. We are always thinking and praying for you
Love the Bible verse you included in this post! I do hope that you will be able to tell Zach he's gonna be a Daddy soon! The Lord has a plan, so keep on being faithful!!!
P.S. I have something for you on my blog today. Come check it out whenever you have a chance. :)
I *love* that Scripture! It is definitely one that I try to hang onto!!
I left you an award on my blog!
Praying for you honey!! Hoping you will get a BFP. ((HUGS))
Praying for you honey!! Hoping you will get a BFP. ((HUGS))
Praying for God's perfect will with the desires of your heart. I love that you're not letting TTC and IF define you but I know how hard that is and want you to know that I admire your strength and are praying for you and Zach
Always praying for you guys and I love ya'll!! You are so strong and I admire you so much!
Amazing! I pray for nothing but the best for you two!!
I'm also in my 2WW from an IUI, this is my 3rd, and I understand what you mean about not feeling anything. I was so hopeful for the first 2, I just KNEW they were going to work. This time, I just feel kinda blank (for lack of a better word). Hope it works for you this time!
Praying for you! I have worn purple to work twice this week thinking of you. ((HUGS))
praying for you:)
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