Tuesday, August 11, 2009

Today....



Today, I did not pray for success...

Today, I did not ask for a blessing..

Today I did not ask God why...

Today I did not get excited...nor scared.

Today I simply asked for strength and I asked for faithfulness!

Today, I left everything else up to God!

Today I went for my 7th follicle scan, I didn't know what the outcome would be...I didn't know if I would be leaving with a canceled cycle, or if I would be leaving with just having an IUI procedure done.

Zach went up to Austin last night to stay with his brother since he had to be in the office at 7am. He had to work today and he and I both knew that he didn't need to wake up at 4:30 to head to Austin when he could just stay there... so, my father and my brother rode with me today, it was extremely nice being able to spend the day with them. We arrived in the office early and as we sat there and watched the fish in front of us I honestly can say I wasn't the slightest bit nervous. Last night I prayed-really hard-I asked God for strength and for tomorrow (today) to hold the blessings of him; whatever they may be.

The lady called me back, my dad and brother said good luck and off I went--the nurse came in and asked if I was nervous or if I was ok...I told her I was fine, I'm leaving the nervousness to God...she said that's the best way to do it! While I sat on that table and waited for my Dr. to come in I prayed. I prayed that God give me strength to accept whatever plan he has in store for us...

The Dr. came in and started the ultrasound...tons of follicle were in my ovaries...(that's what I was hoping to see...) I knew if I didn't see any we were in trouble...however did any release? There were so many in there still...I turned my head and for the first time in my whole trying to conceive journey I did not look at the ultrasound machine, I looked up...I prayed in my head-didn't asked questions and just waited patiently for the results.

Once she was done I sat up, she went over to the counter and was adding a lot of things up...comparing Sunday's measurements with today's...she said "2 released from your left side....none from your right"....my voice cracked "That's good right??....that's what we what???" She said, "well....there are still one or 2 more that look as they can release--but they haven't yet"...my heart was pounding, I didn't know whether to cry because I was happy, sad, angry, or just to cry....I said "so can I have the IUI..." she looked at me with a huge smile and said "Yes...you can; just as long as you know that you could have a possibility of 1 or 2 more follicles dropping..."....with tears streaming down my face I said "yes, I understand...thank you...thank you thank you!"

And before I knew it I was being prepped for an IUI. It happened so fast and I believe I cried and smiled the whole way through it.

I know this will not guarantee I will get pregnant, I've already had 2 IUI's in the past (with Clomid)...neither took...I don't know whats in store for me and my husband, but I do know that this cycle was one of the hardest, craziest, hectic, complicated, and best roller coaster I've ever been on. Zach and I bonded in ways I never though we would have to, I cried in his arms many nights (mostly due to crazy hormones)...I most def. hope and pray this takes and that Zach and I will be on the road to parenthood soon, however whatever God's plan is...I'm ok with; he knows best and I trust him!!

So know we are officially in the wait. I go back in 2 weeks for blood work!! :)

A big thank you to Ashley for keeping everyone updated!! Thank you to everyone for the comments, prayers, texts, support and calls...I had 80 emails when I got home from today's appt...I read each and everyone of them and cried the whole way through. You all are so amazing, so nice and so caring. We are very blessed to have the support from all of y'all...I do have more purple pictures and emails I need to answer back to, I am going to lay down and take it easy, but the pictures will be up soon and I will respond to y'alls emails shortly. Again, Zach and I are very thankful for all of y'alls generosity.

41 comments:

Katie said...

One step closer... I am going to keep praying for you all and for strength to get through these next few weeks!

twondra said...

It's so good to hear from you sweetie! I can feel the excitement through the computer! We all love you!!!

Angela said...

Oh, wow, two whole weeks!!! I am so excited for you, and I hope you can last that long without knowing! LOL

Lauren Kelly said...

I am soooo stinkin excited for you!!!!! :)

Chickie said...

I am so EXCITED for you!

Natalie said...

I am just sitting here with tears streaming down my face -- I'm so happy for you. It is so obvious God is in this every single step of the way!!

Melissa said...

This is great! Everything is working out great and this is your moment! Continue to have faith and believe and you will be pregnant. I will pray for this every day. I hope that in two weeks you have the best news to share with everyone! My god bless you and Zach! Thanks for allowing me to be apart of your journey. Take care! Melissa

Sarah said...

I have chills!! I'm wearing my great-grandmother's amethyst (purple) earrings today. I'm so grateful you've let us all take part in this journey with you.

Ape said...

very excited for the 2 of you! God works in mysterious ways and this was his way of saying okay Tiffany & Zach lets give this another shot!! Can't wait to hear the end result news! Will you do a back to back?

Rosie said...

I'm soso so so so so happy for ya'll! I will continue to pray throughout this tww and you just take it easy missy :) Love ya!

kirstenpetree said...

woohoo!!!!! praying, praying, praying!!!!!!!

Brenton and Jenna Lane said...

This is the greatest news I've heard! was so excited when I saw the facebook update!!! Keep on truckin girl!

Jennifer said...

Congratulations! I'm so happy for you... I'm still crying. You are such an example of strength and faith and I hope that I can learn what you accomplished today.

Ashley said...

I am super excited for y'all and these 2 weeks will just fly by :) I really wish I could have caught your reaction on camera, when she said, "YES"!!!! Love ya!

RyderMakes3 said...

Again, so very excited for you! You will continue to be in my prayers!! ~Katie =)

Kristin said...

What an amazing story, Tiffany! I am so excited for you and I will be praying for you! When you have a baby, I have a feeling it's going to be wearing alot of purple! LOL!!!!!!!!

lisa said...

i had an IUI also this morning and i will pray that yours is successfull. i was looking for infertility blogs when i found yours. I am new to the infertility process and wanted to say thanks for being willing to share what is going on in your life. it is actually very comforting to read about others experiences. i wish you all the best.

Kristi said...

Praying in Arkansas. Girl I am tearing up just reading today's post. I am so excited for you. I have been there and done that, only with IVF, but that waiting period was the longest and hardest ever. Hang in there and try to just give it all to God. If this didn't take, we all know God's timing isn't now. Praying, praying, praying.

Kerri said...

Congrats! I had 4 mature follicles when I triggered before my IUI and am now pregnant with a singleton. :)

Amber said...

what amazing news so glad to hear that you were able to get the IUI!

Melody said...

I CANNOT tell you how happy I am about this!

daniella said...

I'm going to join the others in hope and faith and tell you that I'm VERY excited for your day! The beggining of your post touched me deeply; God doesn't require it, but He truly adores our humbleness.

Brittany and Charlie said...

Congrats! Hope it takes:)

The Milams said...

I'll be praying for you during the TWW. Hoping for that BFP! But know matter what God has a plan and it bigger than all of us. SO HAPPY FOR YOU!!!

Jennifer said...

what amazing news!! i will be praying for you and Zach and that this IUI works. keep us updated:)

Kimberly said...

Yay! Keep leaving it to Him!

Stephanie said...

Thinking of you!!!!! Glad everything went well...I cannot think of more deserving people!

Helene said...

I was practically shaking as I read this post...hoping there would be good news in there!! I'm so happy you were able to move forward with the IUI...and even though you did Clomid before with an IUI, you've changed things up a bit and sometimes that's all your body needs to kick into gear!

Wishing you the best of luck!

Crystal said...

So happy to read that everything went well!! That's amazing news!! Praying for you both!!!!

A said...

I have been praying for you! What great news! I hope God uses this in a huge way!

Veronica said...

Hey! Just wanted to tell you that I read this post yesterday but didn't have the chance to leave a comment. I'm just coming back today to say that I was sooooo excited to hear that you got to have the IUI afterall. I was so excited to read Ashley's update and all I could say was Praise you Jesus!!! I will continue to keep you guys in my prayers and know in my heart that God has a plan for you guys.

Love ya!
Ver

P.S. Alyssa and Audrey were wearing their purple yesterday!!!

Elise said...

wow, that is awesome, so happy for you! It's amazing what strong faith you have, how inspiring!

The Kelley Family said...

Wow, that is amazing! Very happy for you and zach. I will be keepingyou in my prayers. good Luck!!

G & H said...

Yeah Tiff! As much as the 2ww can drive ya crazy its a beautiful time for so much hope and promise! Your faith is inspiring and amazing!!!

Our Journey... said...

Yay! So excited for you guys!

Tiffany Lockette said...

Go Tiff and Zach!! My prayers are with you guys!!

Hannah Ngo-Whitcomb said...

yay!!! I will continue to pray for you guys.

Isn't it amazing how the Lord hears and answers our prayers? He will continue to pour out blessings for you guys.

Tiffany said...

So glad you got good news!!! Let the wait begin. T & P coming your way.

Jess said...

OMG, so happy for you!! I will be keeping my fingers crossed for a BFP for you! :)

Buford Betty said...

So glad you got the insemination! And hopefully the 3rd time's the charm - we're hoping the same thing on our end. Argh for the dreaded 2 week wait... just keep praying for patience and peace with it all. I'll certainly be praying for y'all!

Marla.z said...

I just recently started following your blog, and I hope that this time it works for you!!!! It sounds like you've been through enough, and you deserve a break. Keep the faith! Here's hoping you see your BFP real soon!


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