Thursday, August 5, 2010

First Night in the Nursing Home

Last night was my mothers first night in the nursing home, and I wish I could say it went well...

She arrived in the nursing home around 7pm-ish...I left to go home so she could rest around 8ish; I got a call a little after midnight from my mom, crying-begging and pleading for me to come and get her. She was devastated, miserable, saddened, scared and a little angry. She told me that she thought I was going to leave her there forever :( if that wasn't bad enough she called again at 2am and did the exact same thing, begged for me to come get her-cried and said 'Tiffany if you love me-please come get me from here'...

BROKE MY HEART. I have been crying all day off and on. This is so hard. I've been through alot with my mom, but never this. And although this is only temporary it's still extremely hard. She feels abandoned and I hate that she feels this way.

I would never ever do anything to hurt my mother on purpose, and although I know I am doing the right thing for her, I honestly feel like the worst daughter ever! I consider myself strong when it comes to myself and my infertility, but when it comes to my mom I think I am as weak as I could possibly get...everyone keeps telling me to be strong for my mom, but it's hard. Like she needs me to be strong for her, I need her to be strong for me.

I just want to see my mom excel through these couple weeks and hurry home and feel better, I want to see a smile on her face and I want her to know I love her more than anything in the world!

Please say a special prayer for her tonight that her 2nd night will be much better than the 1st, please pray that she knows that I love her and to be strong throughout all of this. I know she can do it, I just want her to believe in herself and to show her nurses and Dr's that she can do this!

Thanks for all the sweet comments and prayers, means so very much!

15 comments:

Rachel said...

Sorry to hear that it was a tough night for her. I am hopeful that tonight goes much better.

Lauren said...

Oh, Tiffany, I'm so sorry! I know how hard that must have been to hear coming from your Mom. Thinking of you and praying for you both.

Rosie said...

Hi honey! I'm so sorry that you and your mom are going thru this all right now. It is for the best and I think it's ok for her to be scared, and for you to be sad. Just keep telling yourself that it's only temporary. And if anyone knows "If He brings you to it, He'll bring you through it" it's you! Love you.

Ashlee McCrary said...

That's very sad to hear you mom going through this hard time right now in recovery. I hope she has a better night ahead real soon! Dont be so hard on yourself girl. You're doing more than what some would do, seriously! You've been awesome (From what I've read on your blog)

Kristin said...

I'm so sorry, Tiffany. I'll be praying that things go much better tonight.

Donna said...

Been there and know how hard that is! You just have to know that you are doing the right thing for the right reasons...trying to keep her safe with the best care and she WILL get used to new surroundings. Explaining it may not even help but asking the facility to turn off her phone at night might. They will get in touch with you if they need you...good luck!!

waiting and wishing said...

I'm sorry you are going through this. I'll be praying for you both to feel peace tonight!

Kelly said...

Oh my goodness...

We will be praying for your precious mother. This must be so incredibly hard on both of you.

Please keep us all updated on how she is feeling.

God bless,
Kelly

Tiffany said...

I am so sorry. I will be praying things go better.

Sarah said...

Can't imagine how you're feeling but know God is watching over you. Prayers for strength, peace, and everything else you need that I'm not aware of (and that you may not be aware of either).

Stacey said...

Oh my goodness, Tiffany. This is so, so hard! I know that sometimes watching a loved one suffer feels so much worse than our own struggles. Praying for you and for your mom. I hope she will be able to go home really soon, and I pray that her spirits will be lifted!

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twondra said...

Oh sweetie, definitely praying. I think you are stronger than what you think, and you're right..you need your mom to be strong for you, too.

You're a wonderful daughter and you are putting your mom's needs first. (((HUGS)))

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Hoping for our own Peanut said...

Im so sorry youre going through this! I hope your Moms stay has been better since!!


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