Last night was my mothers first night in the nursing home, and I wish I could say it went well...
She arrived in the nursing home around 7pm-ish...I left to go home so she could rest around 8ish; I got a call a little after midnight from my mom, crying-begging and pleading for me to come and get her. She was devastated, miserable, saddened, scared and a little angry. She told me that she thought I was going to leave her there forever :( if that wasn't bad enough she called again at 2am and did the exact same thing, begged for me to come get her-cried and said 'Tiffany if you love me-please come get me from here'...
BROKE MY HEART. I have been crying all day off and on. This is so hard. I've been through alot with my mom, but never this. And although this is only temporary it's still extremely hard. She feels abandoned and I hate that she feels this way.
I would never ever do anything to hurt my mother on purpose, and although I know I am doing the right thing for her, I honestly feel like the worst daughter ever! I consider myself strong when it comes to myself and my infertility, but when it comes to my mom I think I am as weak as I could possibly get...everyone keeps telling me to be strong for my mom, but it's hard. Like she needs me to be strong for her, I need her to be strong for me.
I just want to see my mom excel through these couple weeks and hurry home and feel better, I want to see a smile on her face and I want her to know I love her more than anything in the world!
Please say a special prayer for her tonight that her 2nd night will be much better than the 1st, please pray that she knows that I love her and to be strong throughout all of this. I know she can do it, I just want her to believe in herself and to show her nurses and Dr's that she can do this!
Thanks for all the sweet comments and prayers, means so very much!