Sunday, October 24, 2010


I don't know what it is, but lately I can honestly say I am beyond stressed. About what you ask? I'm not exactly sure, there has been a lot of things going on lately...

There has been alot on my mind...

I often wonder about my moms health, it's declining and it will only be a matter of months probably before she is in a wheelchair for good. She is beyond sad, I'm beyond sad for her. We saw it coming, but it's still not easy...losing your mobility is hard, and a hard to accept.

This is my first Holiday season in retail...that right there spells S-T-R-E-S-S! I already work long hours, but even longer hours will be coming along. I think it's just recently hit me that I will be working on Christmas Eve this year, and late at that...that means I'll either be late to Christmas celebration with family if I'll even be able to make it at all.

Then you have family in general, I know it's impossible for family (and friends) to be there for you 24/7 and I'm not exactly asking for that...maybe I'm just a 26 year old baby who is having a hard couple months and wants her family there for her...but it seems they only ask how I am when I write about it on here, or write a status on facebook...I guess I just need a hug...a BIG hug, and maybe a how are you. (I know, wah..wah...wah, can I complain any more?!!)

Then you have my always weighs heavy on my heart...yes THANK THE GOOD LORD, nothing is wrong with my thyroid and my swollen lymph nodes are nothing (thank God!) but it's hard not to think about our journey at times...God has a special plan for Zach and I...we know this; we believe in this...and we have faith. But we still have our weak moments at times.

I could go seems when your stressed things pile up fast, but I'm not going to waste y'alls time by listing my mile long list of 'poor me moments'... :) I'll be ok! In fact Zach promised to make me a Chocolate Sundae this afternoon, so that's already made things somewhat better.... :) I know, I know, I'm cheating on my diet...but you have to every now and then! :)

By the way...if you have my email address (the one) saved in your computer, please change it... it's now I have been unable to respond to emails via my phone, which has been delaying some of my email responses back to y' please send any emails to my yahoo account :)


twondra said...

I wish I could give you a huge hug sweetie. Thinking of you. (((HUGS)))

Kristin said...

I am so sorry you've been feeling so stressed lately. I totally understand what you mean about just needing people to care, before you say anything. I feel like I've been going through a rough time too where it seems like everything that could go wrong has been. I hope things will start looking up for you soon! Sending hugs your way :)

Amanda Kines-Phillips said...

I definitely know how you feel. Sometimes I feel so stressed I just want to SCREAM!!! I always get tired of putting on a "happy face" and pretending everything is just perfect ALL the time. But then, I look around and realize that other people are having to go thru more difficult things and have to deal with a lot more than I, I realize its not so bad. would be nice just to have someone to say they care.

Ashley said...

I feel just like you at times! It seems like we have a lot in common.......First off I am dealing with infertility also, my dad is paralyzed and is in a wheelchair and I am a nurse so I have to miss those wonderful holiday gatherings:( So I totally know where you are coming from and it can get to me at times too. However, I know I am not alone and I have become so much stronger through this all! Just like you! You are an amazing person and I hate to hear you are feeling stressed but it WILL get better!!!! I know you know that but weak moments can take control. If you have any questions e-mail me at I gave you my e-mail a couple months ago and had you add me to your--infertility support.

Lauren said...

Thinking of your Mom, friend... and saying a prayer for you, for peace and comfort in the midst of the stress!!!

The Guerra's said...

So sorry you are feeling so stressed! Wish I could wrap my arms around you! WIll keep praying for you!!

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