Resolutions

Do you have a resolution?

Zach and I normally bring in the new year with some...

Either eat healthier, go to the gym more, tell your loved ones just that 'extra' time how much you love them...

There are alot...

But this year (beside the normal) we don't really have any...

Do you?

If so what are they?!


I do know that I will CONTINUE to be patient...and will CONTINUE to pray....and will CONTINUE to have faith in our Lord...I will CONTINUE to believe that he has HUGE plans in store for us...

May 2011 be the year that all YOUR dreams come true!

2011

Will 2011 be 'our year'

Will it be the year that I see 2 pink lines...

Will I finally be able to tell my husband he will be a father...

Will I be able to feel a child move in my womb?

Will 2011 be the year all our dreams come true?

Will I be able to decorate a nursery...

Will 2011 be the year I can announce to all my friends and family that we are pregnant?


I wish I could tell you...

I wish i could say 'yes' and know that it 'WILL' be...

But I don't!

AND I ACCEPT THAT.

I do however know that 2011 will be an AMAZING year, we WILL be able to move forward, and for that I am beyond thankful!!!

CHRISTmas

CHRISTmas....it was unbelievable!

Christmas eve I had to work until really late, thankfully we were able to make the late late Christmas Eve service, it was amazing. It's candlelight toward the end and it's breathtaking. So amazing!

Christmas day we woke up 'earrrrrrrly' and very eager to spend the whole day with family. We did presents (Santa spoiled me this year)...we watched a few movies, and then we started on Christmas dinner...ate and munched on food all day (I feel like I've gained 5 pounds just today!

My mom, her boyfriend and my grandma Perk came by for dinner, I can't tell you just how much it meant to have a little of my family with all of Zach's family...everyone was enjoying everyone's company-it was nice! After diner my mom wasn't feeling to good so they left...a few hours later my other set of grandparents stopped by to see my inlaws!

I was blessed with alot of love this Christmas...presents...food...fun...laughter...but the best of all I had alot of family at one time, and that's priceless to me!

I hope you and yours enjoyed this amazing Christmas Day!

Merry Christmas

From Our Home to Yours....

We hope everyone has a marvelous Christmas!!!

Remember the REASON FOR THE SEASON!

Merrrrrrry Christmas from The Pifer's

Divorced Families

Are any of y'all apart of divorced families? I know I can't be the only one...

My parents got divorced when I was just a baby. I know they did what they felt was right, and I'm not one to judge them for that. I believe they have always had my best interest at heart, and although times were rough without my mom and dad by my side at the same time I don't blame them.

There divorce has also brought a few special people into my life as well, without there divorce I wouldn't have a sweet (well hard-headed-bratty) brother, whom bratty or not-I love dearly! I also wouldn't have gotten a sweet step mother who is like one of my best friends...and my mom has a really nice boyfriend who cares so deeply for her. So although at times I often wish I could have my mom and dad back together just to see what a happy normal family looks like I stop and realize without there divorce I wouldn't have been blessed with some amazing people in my life...

Now with that all said...

Being apart of a divorced family stinks at times!!!

In fact, it absolutely kills me at times, I want to curl in a little ball and go into hiding.

I'm 26 years old, my parents have been divorced a good 25 years. I know there were harsh feelings between them in the beginning, but you would think after 25 flippin' years they could learn to get along for ME! I don't care if they continue to hate each other, that's there own issues...I just want a couple days out of a year with my whole family together, is that really too much to ask?!

My in-laws are coming in town for Christmas this year...they haven't spent Christmas in TX since Zach and I were married and they moved away. I would love nothing more to have his family AND mine together for one holiday, chances are with them living a few states away this won't happen often...so I honestly didn't think for my split family being together with his family for a couple hours was too much to ask....I guess it was.

I heard excuses after excuses....but the one that really broke my heart was 'well you know -so and so- will be there, and that wouldn't work out'...so and so in case your wondering is one of my parents...(although I can post whatever I feel needed on my blog, b/c its more like a diary to me, I do want to leave out exactly which parent was making a big deal over all of this...just for fairness, and because I don't want to point fingers...I just need advice and to vent about the situation!!)

You know my wedding was the last time I had my whole family together...and I can't tell you the last Christmas or holiday period I've had my mom and dad together. I know to some it may not be a big deal but to me it is, I truly envy children who can go home for the holidays and walk in to a big hug from there mom and dad!! My mom and dad don't even have to talk to each other, they could ignore each other the whole time BUT both be in my house with my inlaws on Christmas and I think I would be the happiest girl for that whole hour or two hours they were there...

Maybe it's selfish of me to ask them to put there pride away for just a couple hours to humor me and to make my day good...but that's how I feel!! Maybe I shouldn't worry about it so much, but I can't help it!

There is no secret my mom won't outlive my dad...in fact her Dr's have asked her to make sure her affairs are in order due to her health looking so bad...before it becomes my moms turn to fly away to heaven (which I can't even bare the thought of that) I would love nothing more than my family together at least one time! At least ONE time!

Am I bad for thinking this way? Am I selfish for thinking after 25 years no matter how much hate you have for each other you could put it aside for your child? For years I have dealt with being stuck in the middle, for years I was torn between my mom and my dad...don't you think there comes a time where they could half way come together for ME!?

I love my family dearly, divorced or not and like I mentioned above due to there divorce I have been blessed with some amazing people in my lives...however being apart of a divorced family is hard and it hurts so bad at times. I think sometimes the parents don't realize how hard it is on their children...even after 25 years...

Sorry to vent...but I would love to hear to hear from any divorced families out there...how do y'all deal with it? Will it ever end?

Questions Galore...

I have received about 20 emails asking me why we are waiting to proceed with our infertility treatments since ins. will cover it now. First I have to wait 3o days anyways, with the beginning of the new year and Zach taking me to Puxatony, PA on my birthday in early February it just makes sense to at least wait a couple months after the New Year. God blessed us with patience throughout this almost 5 years, and a couple more months will not hurt us...not to mention that I have just started a new job, although my boss is more than understanding of our situation and knows all about it I want to get a couple months under my belt before I am going out of town for treatments. There is also a fertility clinic in Temple which is only 30-45 minutes away (closer than the one we have been going to in Austin) that Zach and I want to have a consult with. We love our fertility clinic in Austin, but if we have a connection with this one, and there closer we would prefer to have that...so this will be a slow process, BUT it will be a process. We are not going to jump into anything just because we have coverage now (well almost now...in 30 days)...We have walked patiently together through this journey and we will continue to do that. But rest assured, y'all will be one of the first to know when we take this step... :)

By the way, I have a new blog layout courtesy of Jenn at Muchkin Land Designs, she did a wonderful job-I love it!! If my new blog button didn't carry over to your page and you would like to grab it feel free :)

Happy

This smile hasn't left my face...Have I mentioned just how happy I am, I knew one way or another we would be able to proceed, in His timing. God is so great, we are so grateful for this opportunity!

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God is Great

I've been patient...

I've prayed...and prayed...

I've honestly come inches away from just giving up hope...

God wouldn't allow that to happen...

He kept me positive...

He kept me sane...

And although I was leery, and questioned if I was making the right decision, I trusted in him to walk next to me as I took this new job.

This new job that lead me more pay...

As well as INSURANCE THAT 100% COVERS INFERTILITY TREATMENTS.

God is great! It goes to show, if you just have faith...God is ALWAYS by your side!

Thanks for the many prayers, they worked!! I won't be eligible to ins for 30 days, then I am sure we will wait a couple months and proceed with the treatments! How exciting to know that in 2011 we will for sure be able to proceed! Have I mentioned just how awesome God is!?

Coincidence or Not?

Before I proceed let me just ask you all to PLEASE keep your fingers (and toes) crossed...and anything else you are able to cross as I am not 100% sure about the following just yet...

BUT....

I think Talbots insurance covers infertility...it mentioned in my hand book about infertility (but didn't give the details)...so I started Googleing about Cigna when I came across 'Cigna, Talbots, Infertility'...so then I started Googleing and researching even more...

I found the following (plus more) in several locations...

Talbots (All States)
All IF tx including IVF (Cigna); Company offers Cigna HMO 3 IVF attempts, bloodwork, & ultrasounds. Plan offerred in all 50 states; must be Full-time or Part-time 'B'. Adoption expenses may be reimbursed up to $3,000.

I know the part about the adoption is true because that IS listed in my handbook (so thats good news also!) But I am 80% sure that Talbots Ins. covers infertility...

I have ins. with my husband now, however his company is kicking all the spouses off IF they are eligible for coverage at there own employee....coincidence? This job pretty much feel in my lap...coincidence? Or is this part of God's whole plan!?

I am not getting my hopes up until I know for sure...but this would be a HUGE blessing. So please say a special prayer for us if you would...I'll keep y'all posted :)

Time Flies

I think I've said it a million times just this year, but TIME IS FLYING BY!

Where has this year gone!?!

It's December, pretty much mid December....Christmas is just around the corner! Are you done shopping?! I am! Yay!! I am officially done! I finished last weekend! That doesn't mean that I might not find something from now till then that I 'have' to get someone, haha...but I'm done and can relax!

Zach's family will be arriving on Christmas eve to stay a whole week with us, his grandparents haven't ever seen our house (which it's nothing at all to brag about...it's just a little ol' house) but still, Zach is very excited for them to come!

I have alot to post...just mostly random stuff, I know my blog post are far and few between right now, I'm trying hard...I promise! Work just keeps me busy, which is nice at times...keeps my mind off of other things, esp. around the holidays. It's easy to get depressed and I am determined to stay positive through this whole Christmas!

Well....I threw this 'random...no point...useless' post in before I headed to work, I hope you all have a super day, and if you haven't finished shopping for Christmas, Happy Shopping :)

Christmas Time is Here!!

I absolutely LOVE decorating for Christmas!! Here are just a few pictures of our house!

Thanksgiving Dinners

We had a total of 3 Thanksgivings this year...one on Thanksgiving day with my brother in law, the day after with my grandparents in Valley Mills, and one the Saturday after at our house...

I am stuffed and totally over turkey, we had it for leftovers quite a bit already and I think I'm turkeyed-out! ha!!

We normally put our Christmas decor out on the Saturday after Thanksgiving once we have finished eating; however things were a little backwards this year so we ended up putting them up on Thanksgiving day, and my wonderful brother in law helped...it was soo nice for Zach to have someone help him with the outside lights vs. me...ha!!

Here are some pictures that we took during our 'Thanksgivings' (ignore the Christmas decor as there is a post coming esp. with Christmas decor pics...haha)

Momma and I (this is the best she has looked in a LONG time, I was excited!!)

It never fails, Zach will always blink right when the camera flashes!

Me and my grandmother's

(The following 3 pictures were taken with my phone then copied off of my facebook to put on here...please excuse the quality. Also, please excuse our looks. I have you know TX weather on Thanksgiving morning & early afternoon WAS cool, but it was a very nice day. We could have easily wore short sleeve shirts out and been comfortable...however that evening a cold front blew in and you would have thought it was -20 outside...burrrr! I was inside most of the time getting the inside decorated but wanted to run out and take a picture of the guys, they died laughing at my outfit I threw together really fast to snap some pictures and Zach said I 'had' to have my picture taken....) So there is your warning! Haha!!

Don't you love the giraffe rain boots, ha!

2 of my favorite men!