When I made my appt the other day I tried to get it moved up sooner, partly because I knew if it was sooner that would give me less time to be worried but most importantly because I am so eager to start this journey; but March 29th was the first available consultation. My first reaction was a a sigh of frustration...I've waited 5 years for this, and I have to admit I wanted it 'now'...I didn't want to wait any longer...
God has blessed me with patience, if he wants me to wait 48 more days till we can start this journey, I will accept that and do so happily.
When the lady on the phone started taking my information I started crying, she apologized that there wasn't another date available...'it's not that I replied' she asked kindly what was wrong...'I've waited a long time for this appt, I'm scared, I'm nervous, I'm excited, I feel blessed...my emotions are everywhere...' I apologized for getting so emotional over the phone she explained that she was used to this reaction, and that everything would be ok.
When I hung up I sobbed even harder...why? I am not for sure?? My stomach feels in knots, I can feel my heart in my throat and tears just keep coming...
I'm so happy...and nervous!
This is a step that I've prayed a long time for, although I do not know the outcome of this path I am so beyond blessed to be able to walk down it.
....in 48 days, I will know the 'next' step to this journey :)