A lot of what if's keep rambling through my mind...
WHAT IF I moved wrong...
WHAT IF I sat up wrong or twisted the wrong way...
WHAT IF when I woke up on my stomach if thats ok...
WHAT IF I hurt them in any way unintentionally...
WHAT IF I am not providing them the best home they need...
I worry about them, I worry that I will do something wrong, I want the best for my babies, I want them to grow grow grow, if I could lay down for the next 2 weeks and not move a muscle I would.
God is in control, He is the ONLY one that knows the outcome of this journey, we just have to have Faith that no matter what our fears may be if this is what He wants for us it WILL happen!!
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Oh hun, I've been there! I was afraid to poop thinking I would hurt the babies. I put myself on bedrest for 3-1/2 days when I was told 2 because I didn't want to hurt them. I literally was afraid to move
But you're right...God's in control, He knows and already knows the outcome. He knew it years ago.
I sooooo know it's easier said than done but enjoy this time as it's a time you won't get back. Enjoy being pregnant because no matter what YOU ARE!!! It's the best feeling, isn't it?
Love you sweetie!
I understand all of your worries and it is totally ok to think all of that stuff. Just keep reminding yourself that they will nestle far and deep and get super comfy in there. They will be just fine! :) I was afraid to sneeze for fear by babies would pop out! I would cross my legs everytime. Ha ha! You're good Mama! Just keep doing what you're doing.
I was afraid to sneeze too! I know it's hard but try not to worry too much. At this point there's nothing you can do but pray (and I know you're already doing that!!). Much love and prayers coming your way!!!
I got all my babies the regular old way, but I still had those thoughts too. I kept those thoughts until I was part of the way through the second trimester...lol...it will eventually get better! Keeping you in my prayers!
Tiffany honey, you are just so precious. All these 'what if' feelings are so normal sweetie :)Some day you'll be able to tell your beautiful Pifer Beans all about it, giggling along with them as their little eyes become great big, in excitement and wonder. Just follow your amazing doc's advice, continue your sweet prayers and know soooo many of us join you and Zach in those prayers. Gently rub your tiny tummy, visualize your little beans growing and feeling your love for them and continue BELIEVING....in just a few short, beautiful months....you and Zach will be holding the most amazingly beautiful, sweet and precious little beans! Enjoy your pregnancy Momma Tiffany~this is a time and experience you've prepared yourself for, for a long, long time. (((HUGS))) Congratulations!!
Tiffany,you are SO right! It is all in His timing and only He knows if it will work! Thank you for this post I needed to hear that--even though you have all these worries-Im going through the same thing! I just had my IUI on saturday and Im in my dreaded TWW and I catch myself saying the same thing"what if I didnt lay flat long enough,what if this or that";or not wanting to get out of the bed(literally got up maybe 2 times the day of my IUI and I was scared to death to pee!) I know its all in His timing~just really need to focus on that and all of our blessings He has given us! :)
So again thank you! Sending love and prayers to you! :)
I'm right there with you...
I just kept trying to remind my self that other women have no clue that they have embies...and things turn out just the way they should...
Here I am almost 14 weeks after retrieval and I still worry, but when I worry I just pray more :)
I can imagine how you feel. My very first IUI will most likely be next week, and I'm already running through scenarios in my head about what can go wrong!
I think when you've tried for so long, it's impossible not to question the "what ifs".
God IS in total control though! :-)
I have never gone through IVF but during this infertility journey I always think about "what if". For something we want sooo badly and have tried so hard for we can't get away from the "what ifs". I know for me during this journey that is something I catch myself doing......BUT then I remind myself everything is planned for us by HIM:)
Just take it easy, cherish these moments, try to relax, get a massage;) and keep holding on to that faith! You are such a good mommy:)
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