The day we were told that there was going to be a fundraiser on our behalf we were beyond thrilled. It was amazing how people could care so much about us to want to help us through this journey and help make it as stress free as possible. We never thought that something so wonderful could turn into something so negative.
Zach and I have been judged beyond words, we have been told that we are ungrateful people; we are fake and no longer will they feel sorry for us. Our actions are being watched; when we go to the store for any reason we are being looked down upon--we absolutely can not stop our lives due to this infertility journey, we will still purchase things…as our grocery list and personal list have minimized we still must live. There have been several things happen in the last few weeks that have left us extremely hurt and speechless---and it’s very hard for my husband to be speechless! Due to the negativity from this we have been left with little to no choice, Zach and I have decided this fundraiser must go on hold as we need to focus fully on our upcoming chapter in our life.
The Pifer Bean Blog will still exist; we have a few key chains and bracelets left that we will continue to sale until they are gone; after that the only thing that will remain is “Thinking Of You Thursday’s” (this will just be every other week vs. every week, so please feel free to continue to email your prayer request) and support pictures, Ashley has received many pictures of ya’ll supporting us and those will either be posted all at once or split up within the weeks. But due to everything that has been going on; the online raffle/giveaways and the local raffle will be on hold for the time being. Thank you all for everything you have done for my husband and myself…you all are so amazing and we are humbled by your generosity.
This breaks our heart to think about this, as this was such a wonderful blessing for us; however this has began to cause us more stress due to the current actions that have taken place. Zach and I are about to enter a huge chapter in our lives…as most know this huge chapter comes with stress of it’s own, so we do not need any additional stress. We do not need or want pity, please do not feel sorry for us. We are a strong couple and we will get through this. God has a plan, he is the only one who knows of this plan and we have faith in him and trust him to the full extent. We do not need someone to tell us we are ungrateful because that is far from true. We did not start this blog for pity, for sympathy or for you or anyone to feel sorry for us. We started this to keep family and friends updated as well as to document our journey. At the time I didn’t even realize others could “follow” our story…I was shocked when my followers started to double daily…I was stunned by the outpour of comments, emails and support!!! Zach and I are extremely grateful. So to be told that we are very ungrateful is very hurtful to us. I wish I could express my gratitude, but to be honest, there are not enough words out there for me to describe how thankful we truly are.