March 1st 2006 I went into the Dr to get a normal exam....I came out being told that 'getting pregnant wouldn't be easy'...Zachary and I decided to start trying that very day, yes in the beginning we didn't realize the severity of things...and yes by 'trying' we only 'stoped birth control'...but that was the beginning to this journey...this long 7 year journey.
7 years to the date later I am sitting here about to share a letter I have written to my unborn son. YES I am finally pregnant. 29 weeks pregnant with a boy who we have named Miles Thomas. Theres really no words I can give you to explain the gratitude we have in our hearts...we can only give thanks to God above for his timing and this wonderful miracle.
Dear My Darling Miles,
This is the only letter I’ve written to someone who isn’t even alive yet. I dreamed of the day I could write you, I had faith that one day you would be on your way and I would be able to tell you just how much you meant to me. I knew I would love you and would be over the moon, but I could have never been prepared for these type of emotions. I feel like I know you so much already, but I can't wait to know you even more. I am so beyond excited to see your personality. Will you be laid back like your mother, or on the constant go like your father....if your anything like you are in the womb I would guess you would be like your father. You are a busy little guy in my belly. I often wonder when you actually sleep. It makes me laugh to see my belly bounce up and down....I know you will keep us on the go.
I dream about you a lot. I picture you as handsome as your daddy! Your beautiful—I’m already in love. I knew your daddy was the one who I wanted to spend the rest of my life when I met him. You will complete us sweet Miles. You will be a little of your daddy and a little of your mommy (please get my temper) :) You are truly our sunshine.
I look at all we have went through to get you here with us and honestly it was worth every heartache....YOU are worth it all my love! I have learned in my life not to ask God why certain things happen or don’t happen. I hope there's nothing in life you fear,I pray that you dream BIG, and you love BIG as well. I pray that you always have faith in your heart and a smile on your face. You, my son, ARE A MIRACLE from God. I pray you never forget how special you are. Never be afraid to take a leap in life. You are AMAZING.
I love you my sunshine.