36 weeks :)

I'm almost there, almost to the moment I've dreamt about for so long, my baby boy is so close to being in my arms.

I'm still on strict bed rest, and I found out today this bed rest will remain throughout the remainder of my pregnancy. Although I kind of figured that much, I didn't know for sure and was hoping I would be released to go back to work (however given all of my swelling I know what's best for me and that's for me to stay in this bed).

At my last visit he said I 'may' have the beginning stages of preeclampsia, well today I found out I do. My blood pressure is still high-but not high enough for him to take Miles yet. If my other symptoms where higher (such as protein in the urine and my liver levels he would take him now, but thankfully my liver looks fine and I only have a small bit of protein in my urine). He is monitoring me very closely. I am swelling pretty bad, and that is being monitored as well.

His goal is to keep me pregnant until week 38, however he is prepared to take Miles at any moment. It all hinges on my blood pressure, urine, swelling, & liver levels. I'm only to get up out of bed to potty and bath-and only able to be in the car when I'm going to an appt. (and yes I am being good and doing what I'm told, I didn't come this far to mess around and risk anything).

IF I am still pregnant come 38 weeks he will induce me on May 1st. I will go in the evening before and we will start pitocin first thing in the morning on the 1st. I'm so happy to at least have a for sure date to count down too. Yes, I may not make it that far-but knowing a date makes bed rest alot easier :)

I'm not going to lie, bed rest hasn't been fun-at all! There's something about forced relaxation that's far from relaxing. Not to mention sleep is non existent and my body hurts for laying down. There's only so much on TV, and after awhile the headaches I've been having due to my high blood pressure make surfing the Internet or reading near impossible. I know everyone tells me to enjoy this free time, but to be honest there's nothing enjoyable about it...maybe if my body wasn't in as much pain it would be a different picture. I'm looking forward to my sleepless nights with Miles next to me, at least then-maybe-hopefully-my body isn't in pain anymore. But if you were to ask me if I would do this again knowing all of THIS....yes! I sure would. In a heartbeat. It's nothing like I envisioned pregnancy, but it's worth every heartache it took us to get here throughout the 7 years, it's worth all the countless bloodwork, injections, tears, anger...all the miles we had to drive back and forth to and from the fertility clinic, all the money we have spent throughout the way....it's worth all those 17 weeks of morning sickness I had, all of the aches and pains and trips to labor and delivery...it's worth these 3 weeks I will be on bed rest and these awful swollen limbs...it's worth the headaches. It's worth it ALL!!! With everything we have gone through I couldn't feel more blessed. I couldn't be more happy, or excited. We are DAYS away from meeting our son. It doesn't get much better than that!! I've waited 7 years for this moment, 2 more weeks on bed rest is more than manageable. :-)

Thank you for all the prayers and sweet emails/comments. Keep em' coming ❤