No one can prepare you exactly for mommy hood- no magazine, no book, no blog, nothing can prepare you for the emotions you will go through, the love you will have, the chaotic life you will soon endure.
I've always heard 'being a mom is a full time job' and that is so true. Even if you send your little one(s) off to school/daycare your brain is and will always be on 'mommy thoughts'...your mind never quite stops. What will he have for dinner, what is he doing now, did I dress him warm enough, did I pack enough for lunch....when is his next well check...didn't I hear him sniffle this morning...mommy thoughts go on and on. Then when I get off work and get him he runs around in circles till bed time. I soak in all the moments I can, sit on the floor with him and let him sit in my lap, does he want to play chase--sure I'm tired, sitting down and letting him just play with his toys on his own sure sounds more relaxing but he wants ME...let's play chase, peek a boo, read, wanna play cars?...legos?...the list goes on. I'm a sucker and when he wants me I'm there, am I spoiling him?Possibly. Should I still be holding him in my arms every night when he wants to go to sleep? Probably not. All the books say 'let him go to sleep on his own, it's healthy for him and you'....some nights we put him in bed on his own and he does very well with it, but honestly most every night I hold him, he doesn't need to be rocked, nor does he 'have' to be held...but I 'have' to hold him, it's more for me then him. Around7:30 every night he wants his night time milk, I give him his sippy cup, he grabs his blankie and crawls in my lap. We snuggle, I get lots of hugs with those little arms wrapping around my neck and he goes to sleep in my arms. I get asked a lot why I do it and told often it's just not 'heathly'...but truth be known I do not know if we will try again for another baby-Miles may be our one and only little blessing from above, and if that's the case we are ok and we accept God's plan, but we want to soak in every special moment. They are only little once.
Who needs clean dishes and a clean house...or clean laundry when you could be snuggling with your little one? (I promise I do those things, I'm way to OCD to live in a messy house....but they do get put on the back burner).
What am I getting at? I promise always to be a better blogger. I want to be. I miss it...I love being able to look back and see/read our life. But in reality, I just haven't had time (It's behind my dishes and laundry haha). Mommy hood isn't easy-it's plum tiring to be honest. But oh it's quite amazing as well. The BEST tired feeling you will ever experience.
Miles has just turned 19 months. NINETEEN MONTHS...Can you believe that?! I know, me either! He is talking more, he still doesn't walk much--he RUNS haha! He loves his dogs and loves to climb, I think he believes he is superman as he jumps from couch to couch...he is a sweet, rowdy, loving, rambunctious little boy who keeps us on our toes, laughing, and our hearts melting over and over again. It took God 7 years to bless us with this miracle, but boy did He bless us!! Miles is everything and more than we could have ever wanted in a child.
Thank you friends/family for understanding that while I am not giving many updates on life, I am instead embracing mommy hood--the whole chaotically beautiful lifestyle in which I was blessed with--and the reason I am not on here writing more is because I am playing ninja turtles and hide and seek and chasing this adorable laughing boy around and around our house.