Coincidence or God-incidence

Our church sermon today was about Faith and God speaking to you, about those moments where you wonder..."is that a sign from God (God-incidence) or just a coincidence". FOR ME, I think today's sermon was a "God-incidence".

Today's scripture reading was:

James 1:2-5
"Dear brothers and sisters, whenever trouble comes your way, let it be an opportunity for joy. For when your faith is tested, your endurance has a chance to grow. So let it grow, for when your endurance is fully developed, you will be strong in character and ready for anything. If you need wisdom--if you want to know what God wants you to do--ask him and He will gladly tell you. He will not resent your asking."

Our pastor spoke about Faith as well, about how sometimes things happen that we do not understand nor enjoy, however having Faith in our Lord we can and will overcome these things. I feel like God was speaking to me through our pastor...I feel like he was telling me "Tiffany, have Faith my child...I am making you strong" I know that sometimes we all dwell on the little things that we have no control over...thats life...and it will happen. However, if we can learn to put our fears and worries in God's hands and bow before him and say "Dear Lord, please guide me...I leave this in your hands"...HE WILL...HE WILL GUIDE US IF WE LET HIM!!!

I know numerous nights I have asked God for a sign that everything will be ok...or that he is in deed hearing my prayers. I know things have happened...little things...such as:

*the man on myspace who wrote me a message out of nowhere
*the sign next to our house that said "expect a miracle"
*people we have never meet following our journey and praying for us...

There are several little signs...OR are those just coincidences? I THINK NOT...I think they are what my pastor called GOD-incidence. AND today, I believe that was another sign from God, letting me know he hears my prayers...and telling me "Have faith, this will only make you stronger my child...you are growing in faith and in character"

So if something happens next time and you find yourself asking "is this a coincidence?" Maybe so...maybe not...it very well could be a sign from God...a God-incidence!!!!

Break Time

Well unfortunately this blog doesn't contain the news everyone and myself was hoping for....

I started my cycle...however I am ok emotionally (right now at least). I thinkthese lovely cramps and headache that my cycle brought along for the ride are doing a good job at keeping my mind off of the "big picture".

I just want to thank each and everyone of you for the many prayers, the many messages/text/emails and calls....you all mean the world to us and you will never know how much we truly appreciate you!

God has a plan for us, we know that and we accept that...we don't have the answers as to why certain things happen in life, we just have to have faith in Our Lord and Savior! He knows whats best for us...he is in control and only him. I want to be a mother more than anything in the world, and I can't wait for the day that I will get to look my husband in the eyes and tell him...honey were having a baby....unfortunately our time and God's time are not the "same time"...as hard as it is at times, we do accept that. God is amazing, and he IS on this journey with us!!! When we can't piece together the puzzle of our own lives, remember the best view of a puzzle is from above...let Him help put you together. Trust in him!!!

So now Zach and I will start our couple month break. We know we have to wait at least two full cycles...any more is up to us. Right now, were just going to focus on us and the few things that will be going on during this "break"...I will turn the BIG 2-5 on Feb.2....Our God daughter will turn the BIG 1 in February as well, and ya gotta love Valentines Day (since it's on the weekend we are trying to plan a mini trip out of town...) So there are a few things that will keep us busy throughout this break and def. some things to "blog about"... :o)

Thanks again...we love ya'll!!!!

ALL Things Are Possible With GOD!

Yesterday I was spotting on and off…really light and really non-consistent. Well, I shouldn’t say “yesterday” b/c it wasn’t an all day thing, I would say around noon-ish it stopped and hasn’t returned since. My temp went up a tad this morning as well, which that’s good! I haven’t decided if I am going to test or not, I am sure I will give in before next Monday if I make it that long…but I will def. let you know if I do. Yesterday morning I had a real “icky” feeling, kinda the feeling you get when your on your cycle…well it as well went away around noon-ish and hasn’t come back.

I haven’t really jumped on the band-wagon of getting excited yet, but I am on my way there…I am still really early in my cycle, but FOR ME I am late in my cycle (if that makes sense!).

I prayed a REALLY EXTRA long prayer last night…I know God is listening! I know “ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE WITH GOD”. Ya’ll are amazing for all the thoughts and prayers and sweet sweet comments…please keep us in your prayers. I truly believe in the power of prayer and I know God is listening. We appreciate each and every one of ya’ll and thank God for ya’ll and ya’lls prayers every day!

WOWZERS!!!!

My Dr. called and gave me my test results from last Friday. My progesterone level was 31.5 {which is AMAZING}.

Just because you have a high progesterone level doesn’t necessarily mean that you are pregnant, I’ve had it in the 30’s before and wasn’t. It just something that needs to be high IF you are pregnant, Plus the higher it is the more “powerful” (I guess you would say?) your ovulation was. They like your level to be above 10 without meds, and above 15 with meds! Last cycle mine was 13, which is still good…but not nearly as good as 31.5 :o)
I did start spotting this morning, it’s very light and very periodically (not consistent!) I hope it goes away, my Dr. said IF I can make it to next Monday (CD31 and 20 days past IUI) then I can go in for a beta.

Please keep me in your prayers, please pray that this spotting goes away, please pray that God keeps me strong through this journey and he guides me the right way. Thank you everyone for all the prayers you have already prayed for my husband and I. We truly appreciate it!

Poor Peanut

Our “first born” Peanut had a horrible allergic reaction last night. We aren’t quite sure what she got into, or licked, or eat but whatever it was it really messed her up. We were eating dinner and Zach looked down and said “PEANUT…whats wrong with your face??!!!!???” From my view she looked fine, so I didn’t know what he was talking about, he grabbed her and turned her around and her lips were HUGE! She looked like she had snuff in her lip. It was so hard at the beginning not to laugh b/c she was fine, it didn’t bother her at all, it’s just like her lips were huge…so being the bad parents we were we took a couple pics (I will post them later!) I know I know so mean..but she didn’t even look like our puppy with those poofy cheeks. Well we sat her beside us to make sure her swelling wasn’t getting worse, however all the sudden she started getting hives all over her, big mosquito bite looking bumps. (She had an allergic reactions a LONG time ago and our vet told us to give her ½ a Benadryl) Well we didn’t have any at the house, Zach ran to the store to get some while I washed her paws and face and lips (pretty much all of her) off with hot/soapy water. Just in case whatever she was allergic to was still on her skin…in the short period of time that Zach was gone she started getting these hives on her lips, nose, ears and even her pee pee…it was so sad…she was miserable. Zach got home and we gave her ½ of a Benadryl…we thought it would instantly knock her out, but now she was so uncomfortable and so swollen and itchy that she couldn’t get comfortable to sleep. I googled a lot online and I saw where can put a cold wash cloth on the swelling to help, so Zach and I covered her in cold wash cloths…around midnight she finally went to sleep…I couldn’t sleep b/c I was so scared her throat was going to swell shut before the meds kicked in, I checked her around 1:45ish and her cheeks and lips looks a lot better, and her hives had gone down drastically. This morning she was all better, she was red from itching and had a few red marks from her hives, but other than that she was back to her “normal” self.

I was so scared to leave her this morning and I can’t wait until 4 so I can jet home and check on her!!!! My poor baby has allergies :o(

{As for me, nothing new…I go get my progesterone level checked tomorrow but won’t know anything until Monday…just keep your fingers and toes crossed that God has great things in store for us this cycle!}

Wishes from a Stranger

Well I have a myspace and anyone who does knows that you get "Random" strange messages every now and then...99.9% of them are trying to sell you something or advertise something, and most you can tell by just looking at them...

I recieved a message yesterday...

Here is what it said:
Dec 31, 2008 6:36 AM I wish you a great 2009 with good health, prosperity, great success and much blessings from heaven.

I normally just delete these, but this one was different...this one wasn't trying to sell or advertise something, this was just a friendly person messages me....so unlike all other times...

I responded by saying:
Thank you, who is this?

This morning I recieved a response back:

Thank you for responding back.You do not know me, neither I know you. I am just a stranger, a MySpace subscriber sending you wishes from Kuwait.


WOW....it was so odd but it really gave me this warm fuzzy feeling that I can't explain....maybe the words "much blessings from heaven" in his first message is what really hit home. Could God have sent this man, this stranger to send me a message to let me know this will in deed be our year and we will soon have our blessing??? I am probably reading WAY too much into it, but it just seems "God Sent" if I must say. My myspace page is blocked....he doesn't know anything about me nor does he know my husband and I have been trying to conceive going on 3 years...it just seems a little amazing in my opinion.

OUR New Year

Zach and I didn't do anything this year...we didn't go out but this by far has been the BEST New Years I have ever had. Zach didn't get home until a little after 7, and once he found out we were having an IUI this week he told me he just wanted to stay home and relax and not risk anything...so thats what we did.

I made a few orderves for us to munch on (we were going to make our "lucky" meal...black eyed peas, cabbage, ham....all the lucky stuff your suposed to eat on a New Year to make it lucky....we don't like any of this but ham, we normally just make ourselves eat a couple spoon fulls of black eyed peas and thats it....but this year we are eating it ALL...but like I was saying we were going to make this stuff last night, but we remembered it's the 1st day of the New Year that you eat this stuff so we are making all that tonight) It may be the the nastiest 1st meal of our year, but I be darn it WILL be the luckiest!!! :o)

OK, so after we ate our orderves, Zach popped open some wine and we enjoyed our night of doing nothing, we watched a couple movies...played with our doggies and when that time came to ring in 09' we held each other. When the ball dropped and the clock hit 12:00am Zach gave me a kiss, looked in my eyes and said "THIS WILL be OUR YEAR"...I teared up b/c at that moment I really felt like he was right...I had this feeling that this WILL be OUR year!!!! He heard that at midnight you are supposed to open up your doors (to let the old air out so the new air could come in....and if you can't tell from above what our meal will be tonight we are not missing out on anything that will help our luck this year...call us stupid or superstitious, we normally arn't but this year is different, we want all the extra luck we can possibly get :o)

So after we let our "old air out"...and had a good laugh at our silly behavior, Zach went and got the champange so we could toast in our New Year...."To OUR year, to lots of Blessings and to each other always" after our toast he took me by the hand and we danced...there wasn't any music but we danced...this by far was the best New Years yet, I couldn't have asked for it to be any more perfect or any more special!

HAPPY 2009