News Years Eve ALREADY???

I can't believe that tomorrow is 2009...where has the year gone? So much has happened in this year, we have been through so much but have also learned so much about each other and ourselves. I am proud to say that even though I didn't come out of 2008 with a baby, I came out as a new and improved person. My faith is so much stronger, and our marriage gets stronger by the day. I can't say if 2009 will be the year we have a baby, I sure hope so...but I do know that we will continue to grow stronger. We don't ever know God's plan, he took me down some roads this year that I didn't expect to be on, however we just have to have faith in him and let him drive. It's like that song "Jesus take the wheel". He is the only one who knows whats ahead and the only one who is in control!!!

I hope you all have a VERY Happy and Blessed New Years! Be careful if you go out!!

2nd go around is always easier...

Well I went in this morning for my 2nd IUI, and overall I think it went so much better. I am not sure if it was due to me knowing what to expect or the fact another Dr. did the procedure (my Dr. is off on Tuesdays and in surgery's on Wednesday, so it's been a different Dr. in his office who has done my procedure) I have to admit, the Dr. I had today is so much better than the last. He was more like my own Dr. and I just felt more comfortable and felt like it went alot easier and smoother. The procedure did hurt, but not as bad as last time. He did inform me that I have a tilted uterus...he told me not to be concerned, and it's alot like being left handed (not everyone has it but it's not THAT uncommon) I asked if this could be a reason why it's hard to concieve, he said yes and no...no b/c there are women out there who get pregnant off the 1st natural cycle who have tilted uterus, but then there are others who have a hard time...so it really just depends on the person, and what other problems the patient has.

I go back on the 9th for progesterone blood work, I won't know my results until the following Monday though. I feel alot more at peace about this cycle than last! I know God has been with me every step of the way through this journey, but I just feel he has his arms extra tight around me this time.

Amazed....

I just checked my email and I had 7 emails regarding "new comments" on my blog post. I can't even tell you how much all of your comments have meant to me. I sit here with tears in my eyes because I feel so honored that you all care so much. I never in a million years thought going through something so difficult would be the best thing in my life and bring me to know such wonderful people, God is amazing. I know some of you on personal levels, but others I have only met through here, and I can't begin to express to each and everyone of ya'll how much your prayers, your thoughts and your sweet sweet comments mean so much to me. Everytime I read one I just smile big and I thank God for bringing me to know you all.

For those going through the same or similar situation as I am, keep your heads up...God will bring each one of us through this, we just have to have faith! I thank you all for keeping up with my journey, we will all have our blessings in time!!!! God is amazing!!!

For my "fertile mertiles" thank you all for being there for me, even with as hard as it might be for you, you all have been there for me through thick and thin, and I really appriciate all your prayers and support!!!

Thank you all, I really appriciate you all and love you all so very much!!!!

2nd IUI Tomorrow

I had a follicle scan today (I am CD10). I didn't really have high hopes for this appt b/c well, my Dr. office is closing at noon on Wednesday and won't be open until next Monday, so I really didn't think that it would fall the way it should this cycle. I WAS WRONG...my lining was perfect and I had one huge eggie....I recieved my trigger shot and our IUI is scheduled for tomorrow morning at 8:30.

I am really excited about this one, last one I was really nervous, but this one I feel different...I feel more calm...I feel like this one will go smoother...I won't get my hopes up like last time...I just overall feel alot better about this one!!!!

I will be going to work tomorrow after my IUI, however I am going comfortable and will be taking it very easy, but I have alot I have to get done before the end of the month, so I have to be here. WELL...just keep us in your prayers, I would love to be able to start 2009 off as a mommy to be....everything is in God's hands, he is watching over us and guiding us through this.

What do you think God meant...

What do you think God meant when he gave me infertility???

Couples experiencing infertility often receive well-meaning but extremely insensitive "advice." We can all list the most popular ones: "Just relax and you'll get pregnant," or "adopt and you'll get pregnant," of the most painful from those who think they've got the goods on God's plan, "Maybe God never meant for you to have children." The sheer audacity of making a statement like that never fails to amaze me.

These same people would never walk up to someone seeking treatment for cancer and say, "Maybe God never meant for you to live." However, because I am infertile, I'm supposed to get on with my life. It's hard to understand that people can not see infertility for what it is, a disease for which I have to seek treatment. Who could think for one minute that that was God's plan?

What do I think God meant when he gave me infertility?

I think he meant for my husband and I to grow closer, become stronger, love deeper. I think God meant for us to find the STRENGTH within ourselves to get up every time infertility knocks us down.

No, God never meant for me not to have children. That's not my destiny; that's just a fork in the road I'm on. I've been placed on the road less traveled, and, like it or not, I'm a better person for it. Clearly, God meant for me to develop more compassion, deeper courage, and greater inner strength on this journey to resolution, and I haven't let him down.

Frankly, if the truth be known, I think God has singled me out for a special reason. I think God meant for me to build a thirst for a child so strong and so deep that when that baby is finally placed in my arms, it will be the longest, coolest, most refreshing drink I've ever known.

While I would never choose infertility, I can not deny that a fertile woman could never know the joy that awaits me. Yes, one way or another, I will have a baby of my own. And the next time someone wants to offer me unsolicited advice I'll say, "Don't tell me what God meant when he handed me infertility. I already know."

I know our time is coming, I have FAITH. God has his arms wraped so tight around me and my husband...I feel it! WE WILL BE PARENTS!!!!!!

Merry Christmas

Merry Christmas

from The Pifer Family

I know we are a day early, but tomorrow we will be busy doing our Christmas so I don't think I will be able to get on...so I just wanted to wish you a VERY MERRY CHRISTMAS!

I know at times we can get tied up with the presents and cooking and all the other good stuff that comes along with this Holiday season, however don't forget the true meaning of Christmas, the birth of our Savior Jesus Christ! I pray that you and yours have a very blessed day!

No Time To Dwell...

LIFE WILL GO ON....

Well for starters let me say THANKS to you all for being there for Zach and I through the past couple days. Saturday was a very hard day for us…but we survived and now were moving on. There isn’t any time to dwell on the “past” as we are now starting to prepare for our next cycle.

I talked to my Dr. this next cycle will have to be timed just perfectly in order to get the IUI, but we will def. be doing all the fertility meds this go around and hope and pray the IUI will fall right so we can get that too. I go in next Monday (day 10) for my first follicle scan. Since we have been trying to have an IUI my “ovulation time” as fallen different pretty much every cycle, all the other cycles were a bust, either because it fell over the weekend or I just never produced follicles. Well…my Dr. said “IF” my cycle falls like this last cycle, day 12 will be on New Years Eve. Well they are open till noon, so that is good...however, that doesn’t mean I will be ready on day 12…I might not be ready till day 13-14-15 or 16…and well, they are closed those days. So pretty much I have Monday and Tuesday that I need to be ready on and hopefully get the IUI Tuesday or Wednesday…it’s tricky this time, but it can happen if it’s meant to be.

This will be our last cycle before our couple month break off meds. Please continue to keep Zach and I in your prayers during this journey. We wouldn’t be able to get through this so easy if it wasn’t for all your love and strength and support you all give us! God has a PLAN and WE DO know this…this past weekend wasn’t the easiest, but we knew and saw that coming considering so much is invested in these cycles vs. “reg” cycles (if you really want to consider any cycle I have had “regular”.)

I hope you all have a blessed and happy Holiday season…if you travel please be careful and may God be with you! :o)

Not So Good Morning....

Well, our first IUI wasn't successful. I started my cycle this morning. I would love to say that this "strong" women you know and admire is being strong, but that would be a lie. This cycle was one of the hardest ones I have ever been through. When i woke up and discovered my worst nightmare was coming true I sat there on the potty and couldn't move, I didn't cry but I just felt like someone ripped a part of me out...the hardest part of all was telling Zach. I couldnt find the words "I started"...I couldn't get it out...I didn't want to see the hurt on his face...when i told him I could see the sadness in his eyes, they filled up with tears then thats when my tears came. He hugged me and told me he loved me and that we would get through this...I of course just kept asking "Why". Shortly after all that, he got a call that he had to go into work...well I knew when he left that I would break down....I tried going back to sleep so that I didn't have to face reality, however once he left the crying started....I cried until I had no more tears...I screamed until my voice hurt...I feel like I have lost a baby...a baby we never really had....but I feel like I just experienced a "miscarraige without being pregnant". Normally I handle this time really well, normally I see the neg. pregnancy test or look at "Aunt Flo" and say..."OK, maybe next month"...."this wasnt my time"....HOWEVER, this cycle was different....this cycle we invested so much time, energy and emotion into. This cycle this strong women wasn't very strong at all...heck I didn't even know what strong was at the time.

As of now, my head just hurts, my throat hurts and my eyes feel like there swollen from crying so much....my heart feels a little better and I know I will be ok. I don't know why God didn't bless us this time, but i do know he had his reasons. I have faith in him and I know that one day Zach and I will have our blessing from above. Today was one of the hardest days ever and it's no where near over. I wish I could go back to sleep...wake up and this all be a dream. God has his reasonings....everything happens for a reason, I just keep telling myself this...

As far as whats next....not sure yet. My Dr. wanted to do one more IUI before our "med break" however leave it up to me and having days fall on holidays...day 12 falls on New Years Eve, so I am not sure how this will work out. I will call them Monday and see, either we will be starting another round of fertilities Monday or we will be starting our few month "med-break".

Thank you for the prayers, just please keep them up!

MY letter to Santa!!!!

YES YES YES....I wrote Santa a letter...(I found a website, that little kids write Santa a letter, and well...here is my letter to him (you kinda fill in the blanks so thats why it sounds different)....he wrote me back too!!!)

Dear Santa Claus,

My name is Tiffany. I am 24 years old!! I live in the great city of Waco. Of course, that's in Texas, United States, but I'll bet you knew that!! This year I've been so good that I should be the angel on top of the tree!

Santa Claus, some things I might like for Christmas this year are:
- A BLESSING FROM ABOVE....;
- A LITTLE BUDDLE OF JOY; and,
- A MIRACLE FROM GOD....

By the way Santa, did I mention that I would love to be pregnant and have a heathly pregnancy? I know I know...I am 24 years old, and I am asking for something only God can give me, but I figured...asking you only makes sure I have all my bases covered as well...SO Santa, please can you and God together please make mine and my husbands dreams come true!? Our ultimate Christmas wish is to be parents...have a baby...a miracle and a blessing at Christmas that we would never forget. Thank you!
Love, Tiffany

MY LETTER BACK FROM SANTA:
Dear Tiffany,

Thank you for sending me your email all the way from Waco! HO!! Ho!! ho!! We get wonderful Christmas emails from boys and girls around the world but everyone at the North Pole sure gets excited when we get one from you Tiffany!

Well tickle my whiskers, Tiffany! Are you fibbing to ol' Santa Claus?!? You can't possibly be 24 years old already! Why it seems like only yesterday that I was leaving presents for a certain little girl and here you are now, practically one of Santa's elves! (*grin*)

Sorry the presents the last little while probably haven't been quite as exciting as they were when you were a little girl but, well, you know how these things go (*wink*). Anyway, Santa's glad to see some of the 'older kids' (not to mention anyone in particular!) still take the time to write. I also hear you've been a REALLY REALLY good girl. (Of course, you won't mind if I do a little checking, will you? HO!! Ho!! ho!!).

Let's see what you put in your letter for Christmas wishes: 1. a blessing from above....; 2. a little buddle of joy and; 3. a miracle from god.... Not sure the elves can make these, but I sure will try to get you this. Of course, there are a lot of good boys and girls in the world and only so many presents so I hope you won't be too upset with me if you don't get everything you asked for this Christmas, but I think you will get something special you won't ever forget.

Yum! Smells like Mrs. Claus just pulled another batch of cookies out of the oven. HO!! Ho!! ho!! I'll bet she needs help eating them! Take care Tiffany and don't forget to come back and visit me here at EmailSanta.com on Christmas Eve!! And remember... only 13 more sleeps until Christmas!!

Forever and Always Your Friend,
Santa

P.S. Why thank you for the wonderful hugs & kisses Tiffany! Here are some extra special hugs and kisses just for you from everyone at the North Pole!

ANOTHER Blog Award!!!

My friend Ashlee "awarded" my blog! There is something special about this award though, that I haven't had a chance to tell her about. When my grandfather passed away I was sitting as his grave side and was pretty much begging God for some sign that my grandfather was still near and could hear me...I was thinking of anything and everything that I could "ask for" so that I knew he was still with me...BUTTERFLIES...YES Butterflies...I said God PLEASE let a butterfly fly by me...that would let me know if my Pepa and God could hear me...I was in tears and as I patiently waited there wasn't a butterfly in sight...I wiped my eyes and got back up to go to the car, would you believe it if I told you once I got in the car that a butterfly circled my car, (I'm serious!!!) I set there and just bawled my eyes out, that little butterfly followed my car the whole way out of the cemetary, BUT once I drove out of the actual cemetary it stayed there...I know that was my Pepa tell me he was there with me still and that was God answering my prayers. SO you see this little blog "award" is MORE than an award to me...it means that during this time in our "journey" God and my grandfather have found a way to let me know everything is OK, I will be OK and I am NOT alone!

Thank you Ashlee!!!!!!!

It's really hard to just pick 5, as I think each one of ya'lls blogs are WONDERFUL...but here are my 5:

1)Ashlee

2)Shelly

3)Melody

4)Ape

5)Sara

1st IUI = Mission Completed!!!

Were to begin??? We’ll start with last night…Zach got home and rang the door bell, I was so cozy on the couch and couldn’t understand why he was ringing the doorbell…I get up and answer it b/c I don’t want my poor husband freezing outside (even though the cold probably was good for his “little guys” haha!!). I opened the door and there he stood with the most beautiful red and white “Christmas looking” flowers…he said these are for you, there for good luck tomorrow. I looked at those flowers and remembered a quote I have said MANY times…”today’s thorn is tomorrows flower”…was this God’s way of telling me it will be ok, was this God telling me that tomorrow will be the day we create “our flower”…I don’t for sure, but I do know those simple little flowers that my husband only thought were “good luck” meant much more to me than he could ever possibly know.

Zach was too cute last night, after he came in with the flowers he unloaded his lunch box and 4 empty bottles of orange juice fell out…(vitamin C is really good for sperm count) So when he found out we were having an IUI today he went to the convenient store and bought some OJ…he already takes vitamin C every morning and night, but he said he wanted all the help he could get…we laughed so hard last night at the way we were talking…if you could have been a fly on the wall in our house. Hear we are talking about the most embarrassing thing for a man, but yet we were having such a “normal” conversation about it…I asked him how long it took him to “do his thing” haha…I had to make sure he was there at 8, and heck if I know how long it takes…then we started talking about how to get his stuff there the BEST way…where it stays “room temp” in this cold weather..He said I will drive with it between my legs on the way there…I know to ya’ll this doesn’t sound funny, but once we stopped talking and heard ourselves we just laughed so hard. I am so glad that God lead us to find humor is such a serious situation :o)

Trying to go to sleep last night was like a kid trying to go to sleep on Christmas Eve….I couldn’t sleep for anything…I swear every time I woke up I thought about it, not nervous or scared or stressed thinking, just so excited…Zach wakes up and he goes to get ready for work and gets his work truck and comes home…I was just waking up about this time to get “semi” ready to hopefully go “conceive our child” (I had to look somewhat decent, even if I was just coming home haha). Zach made me breakfast and after his “deed was done” he was putting on his shoes getting ready to walk out the door…I heard him say “come on little guys, ya’ll have to work ya’lls magic” haha…he called me from my Dr. with this worried sound in his voice, his “little guys” fell (the bottle fell in his work truck…not far, but he was concerned they were “shakened up”…I tried to convince him they should be ok…he wished me good luck and off I went…Yes Zach wasn’t able to be there with me, he had to head to work…but it’s ok, I would rather him get home early than stay with me then get home late….

OK, so I get in the room finally, I was told to undress waist down then on to the table in the cold cold room…I sat there before my nurse and Dr. walked in and prayed…I prayed that God give me strength, I prayed for this to be our only IUI and that this will successfully work and I will be pregnant and get the best Christmas present ever….I asked God to wrap his arms around me and about that time the cold cold room didn’t seem cold anymore…I know God was with me during my procedure. So the Dr. comes in and gets me prepped, the catheter going in hurt so bad, it felt like someone was cutting into my cervix…he said that was normal though, and once the catheter got in to where it needed to be the pain wasn’t SO bad, it was more like cramps. The actual procedure took about 15 minutes, then I laid on the table for about 20 minutes to insure that the little guys are nice and settled in there “new home”.

They said everything went well, I had a little spotting which they said is perfectly normal, and they said I would cramp some which again is normal…now we just sit back and wait. I should find out right before Christmas, I pray that God gives us the best Christmas present ever!!!

Thank you for all the prayers!!!!

IUI TOMORROW

YES you heard me right…I will get my very 1st IUI TOMORROW! I can hardly think right or see straight!

I went in today for my “cyst check up/follicle scan” appt. I get in there and she looking at my cyst, it has gone down to about the size of a golf ball now which is wonderful so surgery is completely out of the question which makes me SO excited…well then as she was scanning all my little follicles trying to see if I had one big enough “I” noticed this mass above my cyst…I asked her what that was…she said “Tiffany, I totally didn’t see that…but that’s a MATURE FOLLICLE”. I am NO expert, but I guess looking at these ultrasounds for about 1 ½ years has FINALLY paid off, hahaha…the mature follicle was so close to my cyst it appeared to be apart of my cyst, however it was a follicle measuring 22mm!!!! AMAZING! My lining was 7.8 which with my meds tonight it will be well over 8mm tomorrow.

SO, she goes out and tells the crew who I can hear inside my little room just a hollering…it’s so nice to know there all rooting for me through all this. My nurse comes in, gives me my trigger shot and gives me all the “Directions”. I have to take Ceotec (sp??) tonight to soften my cervix so that the catheter will make it’s way all the way up to where it needs to be. Zach has to be there at 8am to drop off the “little guys” and I have to be there at 9…I am taking the day off just as I don’t want any stress, I want to be so relaxed and calm through everything.

We are so excited, yes this doesn’t mean I will “get” pregnant by this…sometimes it takes 3-4 IUI’s before one actually conceives, however this was our 5th attempt for an IUI…it took 5 cycles to finally be able to get this done…I just feel like everything is finally falling into place! I know God is with us, I asked him today while waiting in the room before my ultrasound to wrap his arms around me and to please let my cyst shrink and me to be able to have the IUI, but most importantly give me strength through all this…he was there with me, it’s because of him that everything worked out this cycle for the IUI…God is amazing; you just have to have faith in him!
SO please keep us in your prayers during tomorrow, please pray that everything works out the way it should!

**P.S. thank you again to all my friends who have called or text/emailed me this morning, you truly know who your true friends are when a situation like this occurs, and I can’t begin to tell you how much Zach and I truly appreciate you all**

Thanks to our Friends

I want to take this time to thank everyone for being there for us through this journey…

Over the weekend I recieved an email from a lady I have never met, she is not in the same situation as me, however she told me I was her inspiration to get through the hard time she is going through; she came across my blog and says she reads it daily...It amazes me the people God has brought us to know, the people who are there for us...ya’ll are angels sent from above to give us strength. We never in a million years thought a journey like this would bring us to so many new and wonderful friendships…some of the people that we thought would be there aren’t, but for everyone that isn’t there we have about 5 more that I never thought would be here for us but IS! I never would have imagine people I didn’t even know would email/message me to let me know “I” am an inspiration or there hero, I still don’t think I am worthy enough to be someone’s hero or an inspiration to them, but I thank you all for saying that or thinking that, whether you mean it or your saying it to make me a stronger person it means a lot and more than words can describe! God has truly blessed us, and for that we are very thankful!

Here is a couple friendship quotes that I really like:

“True friendship is like sound health; the value of it is seldom known until it's lost”

“Strangers are just friends waiting to happen.”

“Hold on to family and friends; they are the most important people in your life, and they make the world a better place. They are your roots and the beginnings that you grew from; they are the vine that has grown through time to nourish you, help you on your way, and always remain close by.”

“Friends are angels who lift us to our feet when our wings have trouble remembering how to fly.”

“If you fill your heart with regrets of yesterday, and the worries of tomorrow, you have no today to be thankful for…and I am so thankful for my family and friends!”

SO THANK YOU, you all know who you are…you will never ever know how much Zach and I appreciate you all, all your prayers, all your phone calls, all your messages or texts. You will forever be apart of our hearts, we will never forget you or everything ya’ll have done for us…we love ya’ll!!!!

A Year Ago Today

A year ago today I had surgery to unblock my tube, a year ago today I was told within 3 months I would most likely be pregnant... So another year has passed and we might even have surgery as an option coming up for my cyst (hopefully not though, I don't want it!!!). well, not everything goes “as planed” HOWEVER, it will go as GOD PLANS! WELL, I am proud to say my faith HAS grown stronger over a year, my strength HAS grown stronger, my hope HAS grown, my love for my husband HAS grown stronger, as it does every day....my support from others HAS grown stronger...there has been MANY positive things that have happened within this year to really sit and dwell on the fact that I am not pregnant yet...GOD IS BLESSING ME as I type this...to have the peace in my heart that I have is more than I can ask for from him right now, this is a hard situation to be in for anyone, but I truly feel God's arms around me through this...I know I am not alone...I know I am not in control he is...and todays "thorn" just very well may be tomorrows "flower". GOD has a plan, and well I TRUST HIM! So what if another year has gone by persay? I am a better person than I ever thought I could be because of all this...I am a more loving wife, caring and loyal friend and an awesome mommy to 3 four legged kids (which might I add, when we DO have kidos, they will still be our 1st borns and will not ever turn into what some people refer to as "dogs") :o)

SO what I am getting at is, not everything will happen as YOU planned, but it will happen as GOD PLANS. HE is the one who is in control, he is the one that you have to have faith in and trust…with God all things are possible, and I know as long as I believe and trust he will grant us our blessing one day.

1st appt for our 5th try on IUI

I went in for my 1st IUI appt (this is our 5th attempt to try our 1st IUI). When I got in there and she started the u/s I saw this HUGE mass of “something”…I thought it was a follicle and I was about to jump for joy, however I was wrong…it’s a cyst; and it’s about the size of a tennis ball. My u/s tech immediately said she need to get my Dr. to find out what he wanted to do, so off I go to another room and wait for him. He comes in and tells me it has blood in it, and it’s either a) a small cyst that I bleed into and it stretched out or b) a follicle that I bleed into and it stretched out. He said as of right now they are not thinking surgery b/c they want to watch it for a little while, but if it gets worse or bigger that will be the option. They are thinking it will shrink b/c it is leaking right now so my Dr. really thinks it’s on the verge to maybe busting…of course I asked if that would hurt and they said yes, pretty bad but think of it as a way of it “healing itself”. He said I still have a shot at this IUI, it’s too early to count myself out of it just yet, which made me happy! He said this cycle just has to be a “little more perfect” that it already had to be…((SO that means EVEN EXTRA prayers)) :o) As of right now I am in some pretty bad pain b/c of them poking around on it…knowing I had a cyst and the size of it really made sense to me, b/c if ya’ll remember I was in horrible pain on Thanksgiving day and a little after Thanksgiving but I was afraid to go to the ER, well my Dr. told me NEXT TIME GO! Haha!!

I have faith that we will still be able to get the IUI and things will be ok…for some reason I just feel like this cycle will fall into place like it should, but we shall see…God may have other plans in mind :o)

Thanks for all the calls, texts and emails I have received today checking on me and some checking on Zach, you all have no idea how much it means to us. I never in a million years would have thought that I would have such amazing people on my side through this all!!

A Letter to My Pepa

Pepa,

Wow where have the years gone? I can’t believe today it’s been 4 years since you have went to be with our Lord and Savior, your new home. I sure do miss you, and there isn’t a day that goes by that I don’t think of you! I will never forget all our memories, all the bear hugs, burnt peanut butter toast, rides on the lawnmower, walks up to the cemetery, you tickling my back and the famous “Pepa kisses” (just to list a few, there are so many more). I know you are looking over Zach and I as well as Perk and Mama and everyone else, your our special guardian angel; I know you know about all the “bumps” in our “trying to conceive” journey…and I know you are watching over us…sometimes I sit and talk to you as it calms me down, I’m sure you are right there with me listening to me and assuring me that everything will be ok. I MISS YOU so very much! You will forever and always be in my heart!!

P.S. I got you a poinsettia at our church in memory of you, it will be up at the church until Christmas Eve :o)

Love you always and forever,
Your Tiffie

(MY Perk and Pepa)

Sorry for the blurry pic, I took a pic of a pic thats on my desk.

"I LOVE YOU THHHHHIIIIISSSSSS MUCH"

My Pepa used to write me notes, and he would always put this at the end with "I love you THIIISSSSS Much"

Extra Prayers

It's not Zach's grandpa again, thankfully he is doing wonderful and thanks for those who did pray for him.

It's for me...yes yes, I am ok! However we are gearing up to start another cycle of fertilies. This cycle is so much more important than the past cycles, so I am reaching out for as many extra prayers as we can possibly get. Zach and I only have 2 more cycles left before we will have to take a "med" break (that is just a couple month break that gives my body a quick rest from the fertilities); HOWEVER if for some reason this cycle is like last (not ovulating) this will be our last before a break. SO PLEASE pray, pray if not pregnancy to at least have my body work in the way it's supposed to. Zach and I like to be able to get all the cycles we can in the "cycle" (I know it's probably confusing).

I start my fertilies today (they are bumping me up to 150mg instead of 100mg), and my first appt. is Thursday (CD6)...I won't be ready that day, but since we are going to attempt yet another IUI, we have to start monitoring me early on.

OH how I hope God blesses us with the BEST Christmas present EVER; however as long as my body does what it's supposed to I will be happy!!!!

Thank you for all the prayers you have already prayed...we can't express enough how much it means to us, and I will update everyone after every appt.