Random Things About Me

25 Random Things About Me:

1.I love my husband more than anything in the world, and believe he was sent from God especially for me. He is my rock, my strength and my everything. Without him I wouldn't be who I am today!

2. I sleep with a stuffed tiger every night-Zach got me this tiger when we first got together and I can't seem to just "throw him on the floor"

3. I am extremely scared of spiders, even the little ones...I don't like any bugs really, but ESP. spiders!!!!

4. I want to be a mother so bad, I want to be able to feel a child kick inside me, I want to be able to look my husband in the eyes and tell him were having a baby, I want to be able to tell everyone who has been there for us these past 3 years that our dreams have finally come true!

5. Infertility has made me who I am today, I truly believe God put this in our lives for a reason...this has made me stronger, Zach stronger and our relationship with each other AND God stronger!!!

6. I am obsessed with decorating...if I could buy everything in Kirklands I would!

7. I have so many shoes I can't even count and yet I want more...I love shoes, I love having the "perfect" pair for each outfit...

8. I am one of the most emotional people you will ever meet, I cry over anything...when I'm happy...when I'm sad...when I'm mad....it doesn't matter I will cry!

9. Being at home in Zach's arms is my favorite place in the entire world, I feel safe and it by far is the best place on earth!!!

10. I love to cook but rarely get too b/c my husband loves to cook as well...I have to admit though he is a pretty darn good cook, so most of the time we are both the ones in the kitchen...but we work good as a team :o)

11. My "Perk" is my hero, she is the one who taught me about God, she has been so much like a mother to and I can talk to her about anything. I admire her strength and her faith and I pray to God that one day I can be at least 1/2 of who she is!

12. I already have baby stuff, I KNOW I KNOW...it's bad luck...but Lord knows when I will eventually get pregnant and the stores might not have that item anymore...the majority of what I have is "decoration" stuff...(for example, when we went to Fredricksburg, we went into a little store that had a prayer that I used to and STILL say every night "Now I lay me down to sleep...." the picture frame has this stitched in there and I just had to buy it for nursery that we WILL have one day!

13. I want to go to school to be a nurse and work with infertility patients like myself, I feel like this was placed in my life for a reason and I would love to be able to help others like myself.

14. I get my feelings hurt over everything, I care so much about my friends and my family so one little remark or anything hurts me extremely bad...I care about people TOO much at times.

15.I love the fact that I have a God daughter, I never thought that I would be able to be a Godmother, and I am extremely proud of it!!!

16. I used to fear the Dr. but yet now it doesn't bother me...shots are not a big deal...blood work? No big deal....it will be all worth it one day when I have my child in my arms!

17. Although people call me "strong" I don't see nor think I am...I have always been a "weak" person, so it's VERY hard for me to think I'm strong. I do know I am strong"er" than I used to be though...

18. I truly feel and (will argue with anyone who tells me different) that God is guiding us through this journey...I feel like EVERYTHING that happens is his plan and that as long as I stay true to him and have faith in him he will bless us.

19. I can never make up my mind with my hair and almost every picture of me it looks different, when it's long I want it short and when it's short I want it long...right now I'm trying to grow it out however I can almost guarantee you that once it gets semi' long I will get tired of it and cut it!

20.I'm obsessed with pregnant belly's, I want to touch everyone I see thats pregnant, the website I am on has a "photo book" section and it's specificly for women who post there "bellys" I look ALL THE TIME--and sometimes I look in the mirror and imagine if I had a belly what I would look like.

21. I LOVE my birthday, every year my mom would send me balloons/flowers to work/school and it's my favorite!!! HOWEVER this birthday is the 1st time I have been "scared" of...normally it's no big deal, but this time I feel like I am getting "old"...

22. I hate leaving the house without makeup on, I feel naked without it and although I know I don't "need" it, I still "have" to put some on...

23. I'm adicted to cheesy reality TV shows...you know "Bromance" "The Hills" "The City" "Big Brother"....

24. I think I have the smallest dog in history, she was supposed to be around 8ish pounds however she just quit growing and barely weighs 2 pounds...she still has her soft spot on her head, the vet said she was just a runt and sometimes these things happen...

25. I am by far not a picky eater, I will try everything at least once, however I never was like this until I met Zach...

I TAG:

Ashley H.
Ashlee M.
Melody
Kamii

"Blog Award"

Thanks Summer for awarding my blog!!!!

What does this award mean?
"This blog invests and believes the PROXIMITY - near ness in space, time and relationships! These blogs are exceedingly charming. These kind bloggers aim to find and be friends. They are not interested in prizes or self-aggrandizement. Our hope is that when the ribbons of these prizes are cut, even more friendships are propagated. Please give more attention to these writers! Deliver this award to eight bloggers who must choose eight more and include this cleverly-written text into the body oftheir award."

The lovely ladies whom I will send this award to are:

Melody-I met her online a while back, and she never seizes to amaze me, we hardly know each other yet we act like we have been friends forever...thank you Melody for everything

Ashley H.-Ashley is such an amazing friend, and we have grown so close within the last month 1/2...I thank you Ashley for always being there for me!!!

Ashlee M-Ashlee is another friend whom I have grown close to via the internet, she has always been there for me and yet we have never met...thank you Ashlee, you are amazing!

Kami-I met her online through our blogs as well, she is suffering through infertility and has such amazing strength and will power! You are awesome and I know great things are in store for you!

Shelly-I met her online as well, she is such a great friend whom I'm thankful I've gotten to meet!!!

Cort-I met Courtney through my husband Zach as they all went to school together, throughout the last year we have grown closer and I am so thankful for that!!!!

Amy...Sara...Suz...Kaela--I have met each one of these girls through a wonderful website, I can't even begin to tell you how grateful I am for these ladies. We are all in different situation, yet very similar. I thank God for you all every day!

AND TO EVERYONE ELSE, if I could go on all day and link all the wonderful people who have prayed for us and whom I have grown to know through this site I would. You are all amazing if you ask me, and I am so thankful to have you all following our journey and praying for us! God Bless each and everyone of you!!!

Old Pictures

I know, I am a slacker...but my camera is not uploading pics as easy as it used too (hints why I want a new camera for my birthday :)...) BUT since I uploaded pics of Audree, I figured I better post some of these pics....the 1st two are when Peanut had her allergic reaction and swelled up...the next 3 are just of Zach and I with our doggies on Christmas :o)

Peanut all swollen

Another view of my poor swollen dog

Zach and Ginger on Christmas

Me and Sasha

Me and Peanut (with her "normal" face)

My Sweet Goddaughter

Last Thursday I picked my Goddaughter up after work and I got to spend some QT time with her!!! We had so much fun, we watched a little Sponge Bob, we played peek a boo and then little Miss Audree got hungry and she wanted to be held the whole time. I took a few pictures with my cutie pie...here they are:

I said "Aud lets take a pic"...but I got sugars instead :o)

I love this pic of her looking up at me

She says "Mommy, I love my Aunt Tiff...she needs to pick me up more" :o)

Such a lil' stinker :o)

Busy Weekend

I don't think that Zach and I stopped for one minute this weekend...ok ok so we did rest "some" but we were pretty busy most of the weekend...

Friday: Zach and ate dinner with The Buechel's at Poppa Rollo's, they had this really neat magician that goes from table to table; he was really neat...however we sat on the top balcony to eat and when he was down below at some tables, We peaked over and we found out a couple of his "tricks"...haha...BUT he was very good and not noticeable at all...after dinner we went back to there house and we watched Saw 5, it was a good movie, but not quite like all the other Saw's.

Saturday: We woke up early, did a few things around the house, ran to Circut City to check out all the deals (I FOUND ME A NEW CAMERA...secretly hoping that’s what Zach gets me for my birthday..HAHA)--then we headed to Academy to get a few things...then off to the new mall to run to the Vitamin Shoppe, then to Ashley Furniture (we found a new dinning room table that we want, but Zach wants to check out some store in Dallas first...) then we ran to the old Mall to get a few things, then to Red Lobster where we meet our friends Billy and Nikki, then we went to see Mall Cop (funny movie--but "stupid-corny" funny)...then we went to there house for a little bit then home...

Sunday: we woke up early, went to church...went to Cheddars with my grandparents for lunch. Went to Lowes (got a new area rug and looked at a front glass/screen door...we almost got it today, but it would have to be special ordered and we wanted to see if Home Depot had one in stock before we did that)...then we went to HEB to get a few things, then home. Zach did a few things around the house while I cleaned a little bit!

It's now 8:00 and this is really the first time I have gotten to just sit down and relax, but it's ok...this weekend was a blast and even though we were busy we had alot of fun!

This week will be busy as well + next weekend...my work week will be full of exciting things and many co-workers birthday celebrations...I think we are going to a basketball game with James and Ashley one day this week...Friday we are going out with friends for a Mexican food/birthday bash (3 of us have birthdays about a couple days apart)...Saturday we are going over to my dads to celebrate my b-day, then to see the magician (that I talked about above) Sunday is our super bowl/birthday party...then MONDAY I TURN 2-5 ((AHHHH!!!!)

OHHH and I am super excited David Copperfield will be at the HOT Coliseum Feb. 24th and Zach is taking me--I am getting our tickets tomorrow, I am SUPER EXCITED!!!!

"Not Alone"

Today in church we had special guest singers who sang "I Am Not Alone"...I had chills run all over my body while I listened to this song...here are the lyrics:

You're here in my heart
You're the light that guides me through the dark
You walk beside me, the night seems cold
Each time I fall, You're arms are there to hold
You walk beside me, giving strength I've never known
I am not alone, You walk beside me, I am not alone

You're here in my mind
I talk to you and all my fears unwind
I know I'm loved for who I am
You make me want to be the best that I can
You walk beside me, giving strength I've never known
And I am not alone, You walk beside me, I am not alone
Wherever the road leads

And I rely on Your patience when I face the unknown
And because of You, I am not alone

I am not alone, You're always beside me, I am not alone
In the sun, in the rain
Through the good times, and in the pain
You're always beside me
I reach out for Your hand, I know that You understand

Today our pastor spoke about God always being there with you, how he never promised that the skies would always be painted blue....how he didn't promise sun without rain....Joy's without sorrows...peace without pain...Tears without smiles...No victory without fighting...no laughs without woes....a life with no struggles....BUT he DOES promise strength for the day....his light through the way...he gives help from above....undying friendship and his unfailing love...he promises the power we need when we fall to our knees--God is there through the good and the bad. Sometimes we forget that even though we are going a "bumpy" path in life that God is by our sides...sometimes we only acknowledge him when something good happens in our life. God doesn't like to see his children hurt, however certain things are put in our paths to help us grow.

Joshua 1:9 "Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go."

Questions From my Wonderful Blogger Friends

I get asked a ton of questions…I thought I would answer some of them on here (if there is a question I haven’t answered and you want answered just ask)

“How have you not given up yet?”
I found this quote and I think it describes a lot of how I feel:
“It's the possibility of having a dream come true that makes life interesting......Before a dream is realized, the Soul of the World tests everything that was learned along the way. It does this not because it is evil, but so that we can, in addition to realizing our dreams, master the lessons we have learned as we have moved toward that dream. That's the point at which most people give up.... [At this point] Tell your heart that the fear of suffering is worse than the suffering itself. And that no heart has ever suffered when it goes in search of its dreams, because every second of search is a second's encounter with God and with eternity.”
SO, I don’t give up because that’s not who I am…I have dreams, I have goals and I will reach them and receive them one day. No one ever said life was easy, have faith and enjoy the ride…God has a plan!

“How are you so strong?”
Me strong??? I never in a million years thought others would think “I” was strong. If you have knew me long ago, I was the weak one…I was never emotionally or physically strong…it took a situation like this to make me WANT to be strong…infertility has MOLDED me into the person I am today…I will never know exactly why God put me in this situation, however I do know giving me strength and courage has to be one of his reasons, I am a better person today because of infertility.

“Have you always had this much Faith?”
God has tested me before, growing up I had to take care of my mom and do a lot of stuff a normal child shouldn’t or wouldn’t do…doing these things made me aware early on in life that God had a plan and to stay strong throughout those moments…I never knew later on in life God would re-test my Faith in him, but he has and I am staying strong today because of my Faith in the Lord…see it isn’t just strength nor just Faith, it’s BOTH!!!!

“Will you adopt…what about IVF…or fertility clinics?”
I said it from the beginning and I will say it till the day I die “IT DOES NOT TAKE A PREGNANCY TO BE A MOTHER” Anyone can birth a child, but it takes someone really special to be a mother…SO yes we have talked about adoption. Zach and I WILL be parents, there is no question about that…the question is will God bless us with our own or will we adopt our child…as of now adoption isn’t in the picture, just because we haven’t given up on the thought of having our own…As for fertility clinics and IVF…that’s A LOT of money…A LOT, insurance doesn’t cover ANY of that. Where I am at now insurance at least covers some, so for the time being we are just going to continue to do this, it’s easier on me (less invasive) it’s cheaper not only procedure wise, but gas money (the closest fertility clinic is 2+ hours away)…so over all this is where we will be for a while..

“What’s the most hurtful thing someone’s ever said to you?”
Definitely “Maybe God doesn’t intend for you to have a child” WHO are you to tell me what God intends for me and WHO in there right mind would tell someone that knowing there heart is already aching for a child of there own?? Sometimes I don’t think people know what to say to people who suffer from infertility…however, please take it from me…don’t tell them this…nor relax…nor there still young…if you honestly and truly care, just listen to them and be that shoulder for them to cry on when they need it…if you don’t understand a lot about infertility Google it…try to learn more about what your friend is really going through…but please please please don’t ever tell them “God doesn’t intend for them to have a child”

“What is the oddest thing you have done trying to have a baby?”
Ya’ll better be glad I love ya’ll because these things are embarrassing…haha!
Lets see…Zach was told to keep his “boys” cold before intercourse…so for a while he would put a bag of peas on this “boys” to cool them down before intercourse…then not to mention the legs up in the air after practically standing on your head making sure his “little guys” get to where they need to be…or laying flat on your stomach and not move (I’ve tried it all seriously, name it…we’ve tried it!!!) Zach would and still does drink OJ every morning and throughout the day (Vit. C is good for high sperm count)…((needless to say this baby is very well wanted and it’s future parents (us) will go through anything and try anything to get it here!!!))

“Any good books or sites you go to?”
I loved the John and Kate “Multiple Blessings” that was such an inspiring book, as well as “Empty Lap” as far as site, Two week wait is my site for sure…I’ve meet so many great and wonderful people over there whom I’ve grown so close to…all of our situations are different but at the same time are heartache for that child is the same…it’s nice to talk to those who truly understand your heartache.

"Have you ever been pregnant?"

Not to my knowledge, I know m/c can happen early on somtimes, but to my knowledge I haven't ever been...

"Does your husband have any problems with his sperm count?"

Nope, he is all good...which really helps b/c if he had problems too BOY would our journey be even crazier..

"Do they know what caused this?"

It all started with dysplaysia (pre-cancerous cells on my cervix) Then it just kinda stemed off from there...they can't say for sure what exactly caused it, it could be many of things...my Dr. did say he would contribute the majority of it to birth control, BUT he can't prove thats what it is...ask anyone of my friends, I am ANTI birth control, so don't tell me if your on it if you don't want me to preach to ya ;o)!

Well that’s all for now…if you have any more questions just let me know!!!

Lets Go Steelers...LETS GO!!!

LETS GO STEELERS

OK, so most of you know we are HUGE Pittsburgh Steeler fans, well they made it to the SUPERBOWL and we are SOOO excited!!!!! My wonderful brother in law posted this video and it's AWESOME! I love it!!!!! It's a must see!!! ;o)

Monday Updates

I had to call my Dr. today and let them know that I started my cycle last week (I was sick and never called). He told me to wait 2 full cycles and call him on the 3rd. I am estimating that should be end of Feb. or beginning of March (That’s IF I don’t have TOO long of cycles). I was on Foremet which is like Metaformin, but just the name brand and you only have to take it once a day vs. multiple times a day, however the pill is huge and it’s becoming hard for me to take, not to mention it’s more expensive that Met.—so I am also switching to Met!! I asked my Dr about another HSG (to see if my tubes are still unblocked) when I get done with this break before we start back on the IUI’s and he said that might be a very good idea, if anything if will lube them up, so I am hoping I will be able to have that done.

Other than that…I started my low carb diet today…I am super excited and I hope I can lose at LEAST 10 pounds while being on this break!!!! Also we are planning a b-day party/superbowl party…I will be turning the BIG 2-5 on the 2nd and our “boy’s” will be playing in the SUPERBOWL on the 1st…GO STEELERS!!!!!!! So we are excited about that!!! Well that’s it for now, just wanted to update everyone :o)

Coincidence or God-incidence

Our church sermon today was about Faith and God speaking to you, about those moments where you wonder..."is that a sign from God (God-incidence) or just a coincidence". FOR ME, I think today's sermon was a "God-incidence".

Today's scripture reading was:

James 1:2-5
"Dear brothers and sisters, whenever trouble comes your way, let it be an opportunity for joy. For when your faith is tested, your endurance has a chance to grow. So let it grow, for when your endurance is fully developed, you will be strong in character and ready for anything. If you need wisdom--if you want to know what God wants you to do--ask him and He will gladly tell you. He will not resent your asking."

Our pastor spoke about Faith as well, about how sometimes things happen that we do not understand nor enjoy, however having Faith in our Lord we can and will overcome these things. I feel like God was speaking to me through our pastor...I feel like he was telling me "Tiffany, have Faith my child...I am making you strong" I know that sometimes we all dwell on the little things that we have no control over...thats life...and it will happen. However, if we can learn to put our fears and worries in God's hands and bow before him and say "Dear Lord, please guide me...I leave this in your hands"...HE WILL...HE WILL GUIDE US IF WE LET HIM!!!

I know numerous nights I have asked God for a sign that everything will be ok...or that he is in deed hearing my prayers. I know things have happened...little things...such as:

*the man on myspace who wrote me a message out of nowhere
*the sign next to our house that said "expect a miracle"
*people we have never meet following our journey and praying for us...

There are several little signs...OR are those just coincidences? I THINK NOT...I think they are what my pastor called GOD-incidence. AND today, I believe that was another sign from God, letting me know he hears my prayers...and telling me "Have faith, this will only make you stronger my child...you are growing in faith and in character"

So if something happens next time and you find yourself asking "is this a coincidence?" Maybe so...maybe not...it very well could be a sign from God...a God-incidence!!!!

Break Time

Well unfortunately this blog doesn't contain the news everyone and myself was hoping for....

I started my cycle...however I am ok emotionally (right now at least). I thinkthese lovely cramps and headache that my cycle brought along for the ride are doing a good job at keeping my mind off of the "big picture".

I just want to thank each and everyone of you for the many prayers, the many messages/text/emails and calls....you all mean the world to us and you will never know how much we truly appreciate you!

God has a plan for us, we know that and we accept that...we don't have the answers as to why certain things happen in life, we just have to have faith in Our Lord and Savior! He knows whats best for us...he is in control and only him. I want to be a mother more than anything in the world, and I can't wait for the day that I will get to look my husband in the eyes and tell him...honey were having a baby....unfortunately our time and God's time are not the "same time"...as hard as it is at times, we do accept that. God is amazing, and he IS on this journey with us!!! When we can't piece together the puzzle of our own lives, remember the best view of a puzzle is from above...let Him help put you together. Trust in him!!!

So now Zach and I will start our couple month break. We know we have to wait at least two full cycles...any more is up to us. Right now, were just going to focus on us and the few things that will be going on during this "break"...I will turn the BIG 2-5 on Feb.2....Our God daughter will turn the BIG 1 in February as well, and ya gotta love Valentines Day (since it's on the weekend we are trying to plan a mini trip out of town...) So there are a few things that will keep us busy throughout this break and def. some things to "blog about"... :o)

Thanks again...we love ya'll!!!!

ALL Things Are Possible With GOD!

Yesterday I was spotting on and off…really light and really non-consistent. Well, I shouldn’t say “yesterday” b/c it wasn’t an all day thing, I would say around noon-ish it stopped and hasn’t returned since. My temp went up a tad this morning as well, which that’s good! I haven’t decided if I am going to test or not, I am sure I will give in before next Monday if I make it that long…but I will def. let you know if I do. Yesterday morning I had a real “icky” feeling, kinda the feeling you get when your on your cycle…well it as well went away around noon-ish and hasn’t come back.

I haven’t really jumped on the band-wagon of getting excited yet, but I am on my way there…I am still really early in my cycle, but FOR ME I am late in my cycle (if that makes sense!).

I prayed a REALLY EXTRA long prayer last night…I know God is listening! I know “ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE WITH GOD”. Ya’ll are amazing for all the thoughts and prayers and sweet sweet comments…please keep us in your prayers. I truly believe in the power of prayer and I know God is listening. We appreciate each and every one of ya’ll and thank God for ya’ll and ya’lls prayers every day!

WOWZERS!!!!

My Dr. called and gave me my test results from last Friday. My progesterone level was 31.5 {which is AMAZING}.

Just because you have a high progesterone level doesn’t necessarily mean that you are pregnant, I’ve had it in the 30’s before and wasn’t. It just something that needs to be high IF you are pregnant, Plus the higher it is the more “powerful” (I guess you would say?) your ovulation was. They like your level to be above 10 without meds, and above 15 with meds! Last cycle mine was 13, which is still good…but not nearly as good as 31.5 :o)
I did start spotting this morning, it’s very light and very periodically (not consistent!) I hope it goes away, my Dr. said IF I can make it to next Monday (CD31 and 20 days past IUI) then I can go in for a beta.

Please keep me in your prayers, please pray that this spotting goes away, please pray that God keeps me strong through this journey and he guides me the right way. Thank you everyone for all the prayers you have already prayed for my husband and I. We truly appreciate it!

Poor Peanut

Our “first born” Peanut had a horrible allergic reaction last night. We aren’t quite sure what she got into, or licked, or eat but whatever it was it really messed her up. We were eating dinner and Zach looked down and said “PEANUT…whats wrong with your face??!!!!???” From my view she looked fine, so I didn’t know what he was talking about, he grabbed her and turned her around and her lips were HUGE! She looked like she had snuff in her lip. It was so hard at the beginning not to laugh b/c she was fine, it didn’t bother her at all, it’s just like her lips were huge…so being the bad parents we were we took a couple pics (I will post them later!) I know I know so mean..but she didn’t even look like our puppy with those poofy cheeks. Well we sat her beside us to make sure her swelling wasn’t getting worse, however all the sudden she started getting hives all over her, big mosquito bite looking bumps. (She had an allergic reactions a LONG time ago and our vet told us to give her ½ a Benadryl) Well we didn’t have any at the house, Zach ran to the store to get some while I washed her paws and face and lips (pretty much all of her) off with hot/soapy water. Just in case whatever she was allergic to was still on her skin…in the short period of time that Zach was gone she started getting these hives on her lips, nose, ears and even her pee pee…it was so sad…she was miserable. Zach got home and we gave her ½ of a Benadryl…we thought it would instantly knock her out, but now she was so uncomfortable and so swollen and itchy that she couldn’t get comfortable to sleep. I googled a lot online and I saw where can put a cold wash cloth on the swelling to help, so Zach and I covered her in cold wash cloths…around midnight she finally went to sleep…I couldn’t sleep b/c I was so scared her throat was going to swell shut before the meds kicked in, I checked her around 1:45ish and her cheeks and lips looks a lot better, and her hives had gone down drastically. This morning she was all better, she was red from itching and had a few red marks from her hives, but other than that she was back to her “normal” self.

I was so scared to leave her this morning and I can’t wait until 4 so I can jet home and check on her!!!! My poor baby has allergies :o(

{As for me, nothing new…I go get my progesterone level checked tomorrow but won’t know anything until Monday…just keep your fingers and toes crossed that God has great things in store for us this cycle!}

Wishes from a Stranger

Well I have a myspace and anyone who does knows that you get "Random" strange messages every now and then...99.9% of them are trying to sell you something or advertise something, and most you can tell by just looking at them...

I recieved a message yesterday...

Here is what it said:
Dec 31, 2008 6:36 AM I wish you a great 2009 with good health, prosperity, great success and much blessings from heaven.

I normally just delete these, but this one was different...this one wasn't trying to sell or advertise something, this was just a friendly person messages me....so unlike all other times...

I responded by saying:
Thank you, who is this?

This morning I recieved a response back:

Thank you for responding back.You do not know me, neither I know you. I am just a stranger, a MySpace subscriber sending you wishes from Kuwait.


WOW....it was so odd but it really gave me this warm fuzzy feeling that I can't explain....maybe the words "much blessings from heaven" in his first message is what really hit home. Could God have sent this man, this stranger to send me a message to let me know this will in deed be our year and we will soon have our blessing??? I am probably reading WAY too much into it, but it just seems "God Sent" if I must say. My myspace page is blocked....he doesn't know anything about me nor does he know my husband and I have been trying to conceive going on 3 years...it just seems a little amazing in my opinion.

OUR New Year

Zach and I didn't do anything this year...we didn't go out but this by far has been the BEST New Years I have ever had. Zach didn't get home until a little after 7, and once he found out we were having an IUI this week he told me he just wanted to stay home and relax and not risk anything...so thats what we did.

I made a few orderves for us to munch on (we were going to make our "lucky" meal...black eyed peas, cabbage, ham....all the lucky stuff your suposed to eat on a New Year to make it lucky....we don't like any of this but ham, we normally just make ourselves eat a couple spoon fulls of black eyed peas and thats it....but this year we are eating it ALL...but like I was saying we were going to make this stuff last night, but we remembered it's the 1st day of the New Year that you eat this stuff so we are making all that tonight) It may be the the nastiest 1st meal of our year, but I be darn it WILL be the luckiest!!! :o)

OK, so after we ate our orderves, Zach popped open some wine and we enjoyed our night of doing nothing, we watched a couple movies...played with our doggies and when that time came to ring in 09' we held each other. When the ball dropped and the clock hit 12:00am Zach gave me a kiss, looked in my eyes and said "THIS WILL be OUR YEAR"...I teared up b/c at that moment I really felt like he was right...I had this feeling that this WILL be OUR year!!!! He heard that at midnight you are supposed to open up your doors (to let the old air out so the new air could come in....and if you can't tell from above what our meal will be tonight we are not missing out on anything that will help our luck this year...call us stupid or superstitious, we normally arn't but this year is different, we want all the extra luck we can possibly get :o)

So after we let our "old air out"...and had a good laugh at our silly behavior, Zach went and got the champange so we could toast in our New Year...."To OUR year, to lots of Blessings and to each other always" after our toast he took me by the hand and we danced...there wasn't any music but we danced...this by far was the best New Years yet, I couldn't have asked for it to be any more perfect or any more special!

HAPPY 2009