Friday, October 31, 2008
Thursday, October 30, 2008
Well I went in this morning (for the 4th day in a row--the lady up front told me I should just move in there, haha!) Well we will not be getting the IUI this cycle, as my follicle is shrinking. My lining on the other hand is doing great, it's measuring .94 (which is awesome considering good is .8) BUT without a mature follicle you can't have the IUI. My follicle was a 16.94 today, they still considered it a 17, but it did shrink some. It is still "somewhat" mature, it is over 12, and anything over 12 CAN release; it's just very unlikely. Since it is shrinking, they don't think it will turn around and grow although anything can happen. SO now we just sit back and wait for my cycle to start so we can start over AGAIN.
I am perfectly ok with everything suprisingly, I kinda set myself up for this in a way knowing that my egg not growing the other day wasn't very good. I refuse to dwell on the things that are not in my control, yes I wanted this so very bad, but I take it as a sign that it wasn't meant to be. When God is ready everything will fall into place exactly the way it should. Until then we can only continue to pray for strength, understanding and patience.
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
YES I DO!!!! YEAAAA!!!!
Which that doesn't mean much, b/c I could very well go in and not be ready....BUT I could go in and be ready and able to have the IUI Friday. I am just so glad they are giving me ONE more day. I HAVE to be ready tomorrow in order to get the IUI this cycle. If my follicles/lining is NOT ready we will have to do it "natural" this cycle, if I am ready we will get the trigger and have the IUI Friday.
I NEED PRAYERS...LOTS OF THEM. The chances of my body being ready is low, BUT very "do-able" SOO please PRAY for a miracle, my follicles HAVE to be at LEAST a 20 and my lining has to be at LEAST an 8...PLEASE PLEASE PRAY. Zach and I really want to be able to get this IUI this time. We feel in our hearts this is what we need, however we do understand anything can happen and we are NOT the ones in control God is. So we do accept what we will be dealt, we just really hope and pray the cards we are dealt has my body ready and IUI Friday!
ALSO, I talked to my Dr. about a procedure called "ovarian drilling" I have read alot about it and have also been told alot about it, well he doesn't recommend it nor will he do it. He says it's an old school procedure and the stastics are just not what they make them out to be. I was kinda bummed b/c everything I have researched has had good stuff about it, HOWEVER they all did say alot of Dr.'s won't do it now a days, I trust him and know he wants whats best for me so--Dr knows best!!
We also talked about the fertility clinic, as some of you know I am fearing the end of the year as if I am not pregnant I was told we would need to go to an actual fertility clinic (which I am scared to do, for many reasons) a couple are, it's very expensive and the nearest one is 2+ hours away, thats alot of gas and alot of missing work. Well I talked to him about my concern and he said not to worry he will not pressure me or send us there until we are 100% ready, so even if that means we do what were doing now for more months or wait or do whatever we need, it's what WE want. Which makes me feel better, he said whenever we are ready for that step just to tell him. He just said come Dec. thats when he would "suggest" going to an actual Fertility Clinic...WHO KNOWS, come Dec. we might be ready, just as of right now we aren't 100% ready... DON'T get me wrong, like I told him I would do anything to be pregnant and have a child, however thats a HUGE step and alot of it concerns us.
WELL...thats about it for the day!!!! PLEASE PLEASE PRAY FOR GOOOOOOOD THINGS TOMORROW. I will update yall whenever I get back from the Dr.!
Well today didn’t go “As planed”. My lining is good, it’s 7.5 which is only .5 away from where it needs to be and I have one more day of my estrogen pills so it should def. be at an 8…HOWEVER my follicle isn’t growing. I KNEW something was up yesterday when it only grew .5mm, but I was trying to think positive and not think that it was a bad thing and only think that it COULD grow…well today it didn’t grow at all from yesterday (that isn’t good!) Your follicles “should” grow from 1-3mm a day, normally ranging from 2-3mm a day. .5 and none is very rare and normally means you will not ovulate. My ultrasound tech went to ask my Dr. what he wanted to do, however he was in surgery so she had to put everything on his desk and he is going to call me back and tell me if I am to come in again tomorrow or just let go of this month.
I HOPE I get to come in again tomorrow, going back in will give me hope vs. thinking it’s just a dud month. Don’t get me wrong when I say dud month I don’t mean I don’t have a chance at all, anything could happen b/c eggs “can” release when they are 12mm…however it’s a dud month as far as IUI or trigger shot. I don’t really know how to think right now, I am kinda at a stand still emotional wise, I am not quite sad nor happy…I am just waiting for the call. I will write another update whenever I here something.
Please keep me in your prayers that whatever needs to happen will happen, God has a plan and I know it, I have faith! If it doesn’t happen it’s not meant to be, I just really hope it is meant to be!!! I will keep yall updated, thanks everyone for being there for us and praying. It means more than you will ever know!
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
Well, I just got back from the Dr. and I am so close, but still not ready! My lining grew from a 4 to a 7 (it’s only 1mm off from where it needs to be) and my follicle grew from a 17 to a 17.5 (it still has 2.5mm to grow) all my other follicles grew about 1mm-.5 mm. I have to go back again tomorrow morning because they don’t want to miss my chance, but they are thinking tomorrow will be the trigger day and Thursday will be the IUI day…keep your fingers crossed and pray it goes that way. Thanks for all the prayers...there working, so please keep them going :o)
Monday, October 27, 2008
I went to the Dr. this morning for a scan. I am on CD9, they normally like me to come in starting as early as CD6, but I was on vacation on that day; so I was a little worried it would be “too late” for there standards. But I called this morning and they advised me that I needed to come in ASAP to get scanned. I went in and I had several follicles, my biggest was 17mm and others ranged from some 14’s, 10’s and lower…my lining was a 4.27. In order to have the IUI your follicle has to be 20+ and your lining has to be 8+. They said they are 95% sure I will get to have the IUI this week (YIPPPEEE!), there ONLY concern is me releasing my egg before my lining is ready. But I still have 3 pills left for my lining, so they are thinking I should be a-ok!
I go back tomorrow morning for another ultrasound, if I am ready tomorrow I will get the trigger shot and have the IUI Wednesday. Please keep us in your prayers that everything works out this cycle.
Sunday, October 26, 2008
We got back into Waco around 6ish yesterday evening. Our trip was AMAZING minus the traveling part, we actually experienced our first "bad flying experience". We started our trip on Friday afternoon when we headed to DFW to stay in the Hyatt inside the airport; which might I add was the nicest hotel I have ever stayed at. The rooms were amazing!!!!! We woke up bright and early Saturday morning to catch our 7am connecting-flight to Charlotte, NC. We left the hotel around 5:30ish to insure we were IN the actual airport at least an hour ahead of time, we waited FOREVER for our shuttle and by the time we got inside the airport it was 40 minutes before 7am, you have to be there 45 minutes before to insure your baggage will get to your destination...we were 5 minutes late and were told we had to reschedule our flight; lets just say my husband was NOT a happy camper, he was very upset...luckly the lady got us on the next flight which only put us about an hour behind schedule, however we had to fly into a little bitty airport in Washington vs. flying into Charlotte. So we get to DC and get ready to get on our next plane to PA; once we got there they had to shuttle us by bus to our little plane (and I mean LITTLE), Zach and I were sitting in seats 1a and 1c so I told him when we got on the bus we should sit in the front so when we get off we can hurry and get on the plane and sit down before anyone else does....we started up the steps on the plane and we noticed that on one of our seats it said "flight attendant only" the flight attendant "RUDELY" said you will have to go wait back in the bus until everyone gets seated then I will seat you, ok...so NOW everyone has to back off of these steps so we can get down and go stand by the bus....there was ONLY 12 ppl. that were on this flight besides us....when the last person headed up the steps Zach and I headed back up....the lady AGAIN rudely commented that she "told" us to wait on the bus there might be more people that need to board the plane...Zach and I just looked at her like she was nuts...we were the last out there, people had to be transported by bus to the airplane and the bus was still there....where in the world does she think "extra" people might come from???? SOOO, Zach and I went BACK down the steps and just waited....the lady called the bus driver over there and then called us back and told us we could board the plane now....when we got on there were 18 empty seats JUST in FRONT of us, thats not counting all the empty ones BEHIND us...I was very upset that she couldn't just sit us out of the way until she decided where she wanted to put us....ONCE we got to PA Zach's luggage didn't make it, you know the rule about having to be there 45 minutes before other wise your luggage won't make it...well Zach's luggage DID make it to our orginal destination, there was NO reason we had to reschedule our flight in the first place; luckily they delived his suitcase to us at 2am the next morning....I was not satisfied at all with US Airways, and I will never use them again....the planes were spacious but that doesn't even matter compared to all the trouble we went through on the way there and on the way back.
OK, on to the trip....which greatly made up for our crazy flights......
Saturday when we got there his dad and brother picked us up, they took us to Macy's where they were having a huge sale and we got new luggage (OH how I love it might I add!!!!) we gave our older luggage to his sister. Then we headed home and made a fire and sat by fireplace and caught up on everyone and everything...it was nice family time :o)
Sunday we woke up, got all geared up in our Steelers clothes and headed to Pittsburgh to watch the game and eat dinner with his sister and her boyfriend. During halftime, all the girls went shopping.
Monday we woke up and went to his grandpa's land/camp and we rode 4-wheelers all day. I haven't ever rode one so I was a little scared at first, but once you got going it was hard to get off of it, it was so much fun! His mom took me up this big mountain to overlook beautiful trees and the camp, her 4-wheeler died and we had to take one back down so Zach and his dad could go up and get it fixed....once it was fixed Zach took me up there and showed me all the scenery that I missed the first time, oh my was it breath taking....Zach was going around this hilly turn and I followed him and the next thing I knew I was on the ground, BOY am I glad my 4-wheeler didnt fall on me, if it would have I could have gotten hurt pretty bad, but luckly it stayed tilted up....I was laughing the whole time, it happend too fast for me to be scared, Zach on the other hand looked back and saw me on the ground and came running over to me fast, he thought I was really hurt. I so wish I would have gotten a picture of me on the ground, I laughed so hard. Zach didn't think it was so funny, but at the time he was scared. After riding 4-wheelers all day we went back to his grandparents house and ate supper with them, went walking down the railroads :o) then we went spot-lighting for deer through the mountains, we saw about 50ish, WOW!!!! They were so close to us too....after that we went and watched old movies with his grandpa then hit the sack, I never knew how riding a little 4-wheeler could wear you out so much.
Tuesday we woke up went to his other grandpa's house, went to breakfast with him and spent the day with him. We helped him clean up his house a little, he is getting so old and it's hard for him to do much so we helped him out alot, he was so glad he got to spend the day with us. We could tell he was getting tired so we headed out and went back to the camp to ride 4-wheelers again, it was freezing cold this day so we had to buddle up with gloves and extra coats...once we got done with that we headed to his grandparents to eat dinner then back to his parents house so we could go out with his brother...we went to this litle hole in the wall called the UI; we all had a great time, and hardly stopped laughing.
Wednesday we woke up bright and early and got ready to head to Salamanca, NY to go to a casino with his parents, grandma, and his dads aunt. On our way there it started to snow, and WOW was it BEAUTIFUL...everything was covered in snow...his dad pulled over so Zach and I could take some pics and make a snow ball, the snow was so fluffy and soft. We loved it, I sure wish it snowed like that here!!! We stopped by the Zippo factory on the way there as well to get Zach a new pocket knife...finally we made it to his Aunt Vi's for lunch, she made meatloaf which was amazing and yummy home made mac and cheese...after that we headed to the casino...Zach and I made a plane that we wouldn't gamble any of the money we won, just 50.00 a piece that his dad gave us; the first slot machine that Zach used he won 50.00 bucks....the 2nd one he won 50.00 more....so we were already up 100.00, Zach cashed that in and stuck that 100.00 in his pocket and only spent the remainder of his 50, he won a little more but nothing over 20.00, I on the other hand didn't win a thing...I never even got ahead to stop....every machine I played on didn't like me, hahaha.....oh well, we had a blast. OH and I got in trouble, I didn't know you couldn't take pics in a casino...needless to say we found that out REALLY fast haha (look below at the pics, there is only one of Zach and it has a goofy looking smile on his face b/c we were getting yelled at right when I was taking it, haha!!)
Thursday was a SHOPPING day, we went to Butler with his parents and his sister meet us there and we shopped till we dropped...it was so much fun; I got really car sick on the way home though and had to take a nap when we got home. That night we made a fire outside all hung out with each other while sitting around the toasty fire!!!
Friday we went to Brockway to say goodbye to his grandparents and ride the 4-wheeler more and also we shot the gun some too....fun fun!!!! I did even better than last time, Zach's grandpa was really impressed, he didn't think i would do so good...I sure proved him wrong. After that we went home ate dinner and headed to the Clarion football game, which it was freezing and raining so we left early and headed home to spend some family time before we left the next morning.
We had a blast, but we are so glad to be home...."There isn't any place like home"!!! I was very sad that we didn't get to see our other niece and nephew; Delaney and Kolton :o( They were with there father and he wouldn't let them see us, which wasn't very nice, now when I see them again there going to be all grown up. Other than that, everything was so much fun and it was so nice to see family and have a wonderful week with them!!!
Thursday, October 16, 2008
Today has been an amazing day, and to top it off my Dr. called me today to tell me my progesterone level, it is 31.5...WOW WOW WOW!!!! Last cycle is was 29, so it just keeps going up. My Dr. said it being in the 30's "could" mean goooood things (doubt it, seriously, but we'll see!). I am just SOOOOOOOOO extremly happy it is going up, I can't express enough how happy I am to see PROGRESSION!!!!
ON another note, VACATION is nearing and we can't wait!!!! We are all packed and ready to go, tomorrow after work we head out and we are READY! On a "sweet" subject, my husband told me today that he wanted to take me to one of "our" special places (the railroad tacks behind his grandparents house) When I first went to PA to meet all of his family when we were just dating, Zach took me out there and it's beautiful...they are the old time looking railroad tracks and the view is AMAZING, we would go there almost every night when the sun was setting and just hold hands and walk, thinking about getting to go back there and see it all again just gives me butterflies :o) I can't wait!!!!!
I also want to tell everyone who as messaged me today, texted me today and called me to ask about my results, THANK YOU, I am so very lucky to have you all in my life. It's so nice to know that people are keeping up with everything, I was so shocked yesterday with the texts, emails and calls I got wishing me goodluck at the Dr. appts, it makes me extremly happy to know yall care and that yall are praying and thinking of us. You are ALL amazing and Zach and I are truly blessed to have family and friends like yall in our lives!!! Love yall!!!!
Tuesday, October 14, 2008
I am getting EXTREMLY excited for our upcoming vacation. We are going to see my inlaws and we are so excited. We have an agenda set of all sorts of fun eventures that we will be doing, I will make sure to take lots of pics and post them! ONLY 3 1/2 days left...Zach and I got our suitcases down last night, and started setting aside some things to pack. I just love being able to go up to such a BEAUITFUL state and visiting with family. YIPPPEEEE for Vacation!!!!!! :o)
Sunday, October 12, 2008
Thursday, October 9, 2008
WOWZERS, I think I set a new world record...LOL!!!
I'm sure everyone reading my last few blogs are like "gesh...Tiffany must be depressed tonight" or call me "downer Tiff" LOL...BUT the answer is NO, I am perfectly A-OK (pinky promise, haha!!). I was looking through some women's blogs that are in the same situation as I am, and they had some really good stuff that really hit home to my heart. Some of the things were my feelings that I just added, but the poem and a few other things were amazing things some awesome women wrote. Like I mentioned in my following blog, many women/cou ples go through this...I know there is alot of blogs, but I hope you take the time to read each one...they really have alot of information in them and not to mention they are 100% how I feel.
God has a plan for Zach and I...we have accepted this and we know this. Even though we wouldn't wish this on ANYONE, it is nice to know there are women/couples out there who truly understand how we feel...One day ladies....one day we will have our blessing!!!! I love yall!!!! :o)
To all our FAMILY and FRIENDS, thank you all for being there for me, THANK you all for the SWEET MESSAGES, EMAILS, TEXTS, CALLS...you have no idea how much your prayers and thoughts mean to us...yall are amazing and we truly love yall
I got to thinking, today, about all of the other couples out there that are experiencing what Zach and I are experiencing. How many of them are there?
In the US, alone:
There are approximately 6.1 million women, between the ages of 15-44, with impaired ability to have children.
9.3 million women are using infertility services.
2.1 million couples are infertile.
10.1% of the population that is of reproductive age are infertile.
About 1 in every 6 couples deals with infertility issues.
The good news is:
3 million babies have been born as a result of infertility treatment.
Clomid has a 30%-60% success rate!
(((SO at this moment I ask you to please say a quick prayer, NOT only for us; but for the millions of people going through this. This is a hard situation, and the power of prayer is amazing...God has a plan, and we know it...but extra prayers never hurt))) :o)
Thanks and Love yall
To feel a life growing inside me.
To bear a child to carry on my legacy.
To hold that child close to me as I sing a lullaby.
To hear the soft cries of a baby in my home.
To be the one to silence there tears.
To hold there hands as she takes there first step.
To not be pitied.
To not dread Mothers' Day.
My arms to not ache when I hold someone else's baby.
People to not assume that this is a choice.
People to stop asking me "What are you waiting for?"
To not cry when I hear that question, yet again.
Most of all, I really want...
To hear a child call me mommy.
(OK, so I found this, and since I tend to be really serious when it comes to infertility, I can definitely relate to MORE than a few of these--partly funny, partly sad...but VERY true...all my TTC friends will SO be able to relate to this!!!!) Enjoy!
Sniglets are funny made-up words/definitions for those things in life that just don't seem to have any "official" terminology. The world of infertility provides lots of hilarious inspiration.
General Infertility Sniglets:
Psycho-symptom-atic Syndrome: a psychosomatic condition afflicting women during the two-week waiting period; marked by a tendency to incorrectly attribute every bodily twinge and twitch to the early stages of pregnancy.
Yearnation: the overwhelming urge to urinate while recording your morning basal body temperature reading.
Peetience: what you learn to aquire when starting to chart your basal body temperature.*
Bladder Praying: praying that your bladder will fill up so that you can take an HPT - because it's day 29 and you KNOW FOR SURE THAT THE TEST RESULTS ARE GOING TO BE POSITIVE THIS TIME.
Pregsplotion: the sudden abundance of pregnant women in your vicinity within hours of your negative pregnancy test.
Coitus timeruptus: the practice of timing intercourse to correspond with the timing of ovulation.
Coinus interruptus: the impact of infertility treatments on one's pocketbook.
Mucusology - the inexact science of attempting to determine the timing of ovulation.
Freeballing: the step beyond boxers taken by truly devoted husbands to up there chances of HIGH sperm count.
Freeballitis: chaffing and raw skin associated with freeballing.
Briefectomy: furtive removal of all tight-fitting briefs from your husband's underwear drawer.
Transfurryence: treating your pets like human babies.
Clearpit Easy: bottomless pit into which women hurl buckets of money while repeatedly testing for pregnancy way too early or while testing for an LH surge.
Looteal phase: the period of time between cycles when all of the insurance statements/doctor's bills come in from the beginning of the cycle. Also a time to save $$ for the upcoming cycle.
Assincline: the odd-looking practice of elevating a woman's buttocks after intercourse in order to maximize the sperm's ability to swim for the egg.
Gluteus Unrelaximus: side effect of the uncomfortable act of propping up the buttocks after baby-sex.
Multiplous avoidus: the act of reminding the nurses yet again (!) to avoid the "infertility" diagnosis on insurance forms.
Day-one-dering: wondering why oh why you have to deal with "day one", yet again! (thats Aunt Flo for those that don't know)
Preggozone: the magnetic area around all infertile women that draws expectant mothers into close viewing range; the first day of any cycle has the greatest magnetic field, closely followed by any day on which an infertile womans fails a pregnancy test.
Miss Mannerism: the habit, when people ask you nosy questions about when you're going to get pregnant or make rude comments like "want my kids?" of looking a combination of shocked and puzzled and saying something like, "Why ever would you say such a thing?"
Graphic Imagination: tweaking, massaging, reorienting, or redrawing your basal body temperature graph/data in an attempt to see either a temperature rise or the magic triphasic pregnancy pattern.
Inferguilty: how you feel when you're having a bad day and you read someone's post announcing their pregnancy and you are overcome with the urge to scream "why not me".
Clomidfiend: a woman under the influence of Clomid-induced mood swings; someone who wants to blame anything and everything on the drug.
ClomiWITCH: a woman uner the influence of clomid. She can becoime the WICKED WITCH OF THE WEST!!!!!
Justwaition: 1. the two weeks between ovualation and a pregnancy test. 2. a period of time just before gestation.
Hormotional: easily rattled emotional state brought on by hormone surges; especially symptomatic of women on fertility drugs.
Hormonally Challenged: the politically correct term for a woman who is having mood swings due to infertility treatement.
As many of you know (b/c this song was on my myspace for a long time) I LOVE THIS SONG, it describes me to a "T"!!!!! It IS a tear jerker, but please listen to it. It's beautiful and very well worded!!!!!
I often encounter people who don't know how to talk to us after they find out that we are dealing with infertility. They want to ask how we are doing, if we have made any progress, if we are finally pregnant, but don't know how. For those of you that fall into this tongue-tied category, I'm going to let you in on a little secret...we just love knowing that you care! You aren't always going to know how to word things and we aren't always going to take things the best possible way, but at the end of the day we appreciate you asking.
This brings me to those that are already pregnant and don't know how to talk to us. First off, we appreciate your sensitivity. That being said, the worst thing you can do is complain about your pregnancy, about getting fat, about that foot in your ribs, about your bladder being used as a soccer ball. We do love, however, to hear how much you are enjoying it, how excited you are to find out the gender, how beautiful you think the sound of the heartbeat is. We will be nothing but happy for you, because we will then know that you really appreciate such a wonderful blessing.
If you are pregnant and have a friend or family member who is dealing with infertility, you may be wondering how to go about telling them your good news. The best thing you can do is tell them yourself. Don't let them find out through someone else. Of course, although we will be happy for you, we will of course be a little sad, it DOESN'T mean we are jealous, MOST of us are so very blessed with the lives we have, however you have to understand how badly we want to be pregnant ourselves. Please don't be scared of us or to talk to us...I personally love to know that ppl. are there for me and that yall care...I like talking about my situation because it really helps (thats why I have this blog) :o)
Monday, October 6, 2008
UHHHH, as much as I love this time of the year because of the fair, I also dread it. I am allergic to EVERYTHING is seems like, so about this time of the year (and Spring) my allergies go nuts! Yesterday morning I woke up all congested, well we went to church...went to breakfast with my grandparents, then we came home and I crashed while Zach did yard work (I was suposed to be cleaning about this time, but YEA RIGHT...all I wanted to do was sleep away my stuffiness!!!). WELL, Zach woke me up after he was done and wanted to know if I wanted to go to the store with him, so we went to HEB and got a few groceries, I stocked up on all kinds of tissue and allergy meds, then we headed back home. I took a shower, we ate super and about 8:00 I was sound asleep in Zach's lap while he watched the Steeler's game!!! I was OUT OF IT!!!! I just knew after sleeping so long that I would feel better this more...ummmm...thats a NEGATIVE!!!! haha!!!!
ON A GOOD NOTE....The fair is AWESOME!!!! I haven't uploaded any of my pics yet, and I am bummed I forgot my camera on Saturday night. We went last Thursday on sneak peak night, and we had a blast...then Saturday we went and we hung out with some friends that Zach went to school with, then when I found out Court was there we went on a hunt to try to find her and her Zack...finally found her and we hung out with them for a bit. I would like to say Kevin Fowler's concert was great, however I talked to ppl. the whole time so I wasn't paying attention haha!!!! We still have 3 more nights we get to go, and I am super duper excited!!!! Zach and I love the fair, we love going and watching the rodeo and just getting out and doing something in this boring ol' town of Waco! hahaha!!! We don't do the rides or play any games ((tooooo expensive)) but hanging out, eating turkey legs and roasted corn is one of my favorite times of the year :o) OHHH....I GOT some cowgirl boots and I LOVE THEM. I have been wanting some for a few months now, and Saturday Zach took me and got me some!!!! I will upload all the pics later...
Friday, October 3, 2008
WELL…My body is ready; HOWEVER I WON’T be getting the IUI. Let me explain….my follicle grew to 21.5 today (SO IT’S READY!!!) and my lining is an 8.1 (SO IT’S READY). However I talked to my Dr. about the option of doing the IUI this afternoon and he just isn’t comfortable with it, you are supposed to have the trigger shot in your system for 24 hours prier to having the IUI, so 6-8 hours really isn’t going to cut it. He said he COULD do it, however he doesn’t think with the success rate it would help any more than just plan ol’ “baby dancing”. SO, he said to “save money” (which I am all for if he isn’t 100% positive on it) so….he said next time.( BUT HOPEFULLY there won’t be a next time b/c HOPEFULLY I will be pregnant this cycle!!!) He did give me the trigger shot, so that should make my egg release within the next 24 hours. (Remember this is the shot that REALLY MAKES me FEEL like I am pregnant, it’s an HCG shot, so it sends all these pregnancy hormones through your body…if I were to go home right now and take a test, it would be positive b/c of this shot. It’s a crazy shot, but it really helps boost your eggies) :o)
Everyone keeps asking, are you upset…NO I AM NOT. Of course I want the IUI, however the way I look at it is…if I can’t get it; it isn’t meant to be. Since my Dr. is an OBGYN and not an actual fertility clinic specialist, everything has to fall just PERFECTLY for an IUI (meaning nothing can fall over the weekend). SO I take this as a sign that #1 God is telling me that I don’t need an IUI or #2 God is telling me it’s not time for the IUI… regardless of his reasons I understand and I accept those. I know he has a plan, and I am letting him drive me through this journey. I had too much GOOD NEWS today to be down or dwell on the fact that I couldn’t get an IUI. God is amazing, and all things happen through Christ himself. I know you have all heard that song "Some of God's greatest gifts are unanswered prayers" by Garth Brooks; well I love that song and it's so true. Just b/c I am not able to get this IUI this time, or those times when God doesn't answer your prayers, it doesn't mean he doesn't care...in fact, sometimes some of his greatest gifts ARE UNanswered prayers...he knows whats best for each of us, we just have to have Faith in him :o)
I go back on the 15th for my progesterone level test…now all we have to do it have what my Dr. calls “date night…or date weekend” HAHA!!!!
Thursday, October 2, 2008
My Dr. appt this morning went fairly well. I wouldn’t say it went bad, b/c everything looks WONDERFUL for being on cycle day 8; HOWEVER I don’t know if we will be able to get the IUI.
Remember for an IUI to be done your follicle has to be 20+ and your lining has to be 8+; other wise your success rate goes way down.
So; Tuesday I had 9 total potential follicles (the biggest was almost an 11) and my lining was a 4 (or a tad bit under). TODAY, I have 2 potential follicles (one almost 15, and the other 19.25); my lining is a 5.7! I am ONLY on day 8 of my cycle, so having these things look this good is AMAZING, however it doesn’t look like we will be able to have the IUI. They want me to go back tomorrow morning for another ultrasound and hopfully I will be ready and we can do the IUI that afternoon (maybe!!), other wise I will just get the trigger-shot and everything will happen “naturally” over the weekend.
SO, stay tuned…tomorrow is “Decision Day”. :o)